Yes, we DO understand and that's the great thing about DS. We can come here and vent our innermost feelings and our friends on here "get it". I'm glad to be a part of this wonderful community.

I agree with both you and Loran. this is the place where you can be totally honest, and not have to shield anything. you can take off the armour and lay it by your side...... at least for a while.

Icezam, I so understand what you mean. I think we here, after going through this, and trying not to scare our familyfrinds away with what's really going on, we all deserve Academy Awards for acting under PRESSURE!

Everytime I tell that same lie about 'I'm fine", "Getting along so far" "pulling through", I'm exhausted at trying to keep a straight face through it.

I get through work, close the door, go to my room, and then LET IT OUT for the night! Like a cup that's always OVERFLOWING, and you just can't wait to pour it out!

What I'm most thankful for is finding this site. Don't know where I'd be without it!!!

Hugs TO ALL here at DS and THANK YOU!! diane

I agree with Loran. DS is a wonderful on-line community of great people that really understand the heart break of loss. Thank God for DS.
Hugs, Helen

To add to all of the comments, I want to say that I've amazed myself at how I've managed to get through this for the past five months. I suffered from anticipatory grief for a long time and I thought I was prepared, but I was not. However, everyone is telling me I'm strong and appear to be doing good and I've decided that I'm going to start believing what they are telling me. It seems to be good for my confidence in hearing it even though sometimes I don't feel so strong.

I'm glad you are all here to listen to my insecurities and my deepest emotions.

Nessie from KY

This site has helped me to attempt to write down my thoughts and feelings when it has been so difficult before. As many of you already have experienced, it seems like your thoughts are all over the place, but the people here can see past it and get to where you're really at. It's nice to just let it all out, within proper boundaries (yeah, that's a new one, too), and not care about repercussions. I am still amazed at the depth of love that Frances and I shared. I suppose I should count my blessings that we were able to have that, even if for a short time.

Yes, all of the above and then some. I come here often, when I think I am "losing it" as it helps to see that others are right there with me.
Doesn't matter what the problem is on this merry-go-round, DS is like a sounding board for many subjects. At just over 2 yrs, I can't believe I am still a member here. Thanks DS and all of its members, new and old.
Great post!
Kate

I agree with all of you. Although I don't know my DS friends personally, I found true friendship from them. God bless you DS community!

Thank you for sharing It's great to have found DS. Thank you for reminding us that's it's okay to be honest. My husband was honest about his feelings, shared them and was upfront with all. I miss that ,so much, . It is not my nature to be like that , but to cover to carry on , BUT I am here, and it has helped.

You pretty much hit the nail on the head as they say.

I sometimes do not understand the continued struggling but its pretty normal from what they say here, and say in the grief books.
One step forward, a few back, a few forward, one back, good days and bad days, all of it - still a dull aching pain.

Darn it anyway huh. And with everyone else you can not talk about them. Its like you spoke a curse word....It does make me wanna curse....

I feel like I'm really getting to know and admire a great many of you. Although we don't handle all the details exactly the same we can really understand each others' pain and each others' triumphs as we carry on. I also sense a lot of respect for differing opinions. I really rely on this site when I must say something and be heard. The amazing kndness and empathy is beyond price.