When Wendy and I found each other here 9 years ago we helped each other and grow very close to each other so much that I left everything I had and my family and friends to be with her in Australia .But it doesnt feel like home anymore and I know I shouldnt leave so soon after her passing .However I dont have anyone here now yes Wendy has two daughters the oldest and I never cared much for each other but her youngest has always been good to me I havent seen any of them in over a month and I have no one here besides my job and the two people that work there  I think Wendys youngest hasnt seen me because I remind her that her mother is gone . the other factor is that the cost of living here is very high and I will be broke very soon living here on my own ,so I am coming home to Pittsburgh where my family and friends are at . this means I have to start my life all over yet again which scares me but this being left all alone isnt good for me .