Widows & Widowers Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have lost a husband, wife, or partner. Anything is open for discussion here, with the hope that we can focus on grief, bereavement, life after loss, and continuing on after a great loss.
My love went into unexpected cardiac arrest on Dec.24,'09.............I begin feeling a huge dark cloud encompassing my being every Oct................. it was our favorite time of year......from Oct. to New Year's Eve Day.........................we celebrated birthdays, our anniversary, Thanksgiving, Christmas , New Year's Eve...............and every day in between****...................well today the funk has lifted finally............ and I wanted to share a couple of things ...................
Purchased a recorder again and started talking to Norm..........sometimes for over an hour..........the time just passes and I feel a connection...........got one a few months after he passed and remember crying and all the most raw emotions............never listened to the recordings again but I do remember the agony............... it felt good to talk to him now realizing that I am healing, and the Lord is getting me through my life sometimes ..................10 minutes at a time..................
I heard the song............. Because You Loved Me.......... today...........by Celeyne Dion............... and it is the first time I actually HEARD the words...................they were soothing to my spirit...........
Praying we all continue to heal and take comfort in the time at the top of the coaster......................................L
Purchased a recorder again and started talking to Norm..........sometimes for over an hour..........the time just passes and I feel a connection...........got one a few months after he passed and remember crying and all the most raw emotions............never listened to the recordings again but I do remember the agony............... it felt good to talk to him now realizing that I am healing, and the Lord is getting me through my life sometimes ..................10 minutes at a time..................
I heard the song............. Because You Loved Me.......... today...........by Celeyne Dion............... and it is the first time I actually HEARD the words...................they were soothing to my spirit...........
Praying we all continue to heal and take comfort in the time at the top of the coaster......................................L
I sometimes think about recording myself for my kids. For Cliff, I sometimes write to him. Mostly, I talk with him in my quiet thoughts. Whatever works, right?
Sending you Love and Big Hugs,
Martha
I am at peace knowing there is nothing I can do to change the situation, but like my former post, I get angry just because, just because it wasn't supposed to be this way, and my new life was handed to me. I certainly didn't ask for it. But I am glad that I am where I am now, both physically and emotionally.
The roller coaster ride is a lifetime ticket.
I'm glad to hear you are feeling a little better. You were a great help to me when I was so new here.
I wish you peace,
Julie