My first birthday without my husband being here. Everyone reaching out and calling this morning, emails, facebook notes. All good. Havng dinner with a girlfriend tonight. Trying to keep positive. Volunteering today and we celebrate there also. Last year my husband was so ill and tears were running down his face because he could not go to the store to buy me a present. I remember hugging him and telling him he was the best present ever. In my heart he is with me today...