So sorry for your terrible day. Weekends were always hard for me during the first year or 2. They seem so lonely and you think of everyone out and about enjoying life. The weekend probably set your mood for Monday, and having to travel did not appeal to you. You are probably going to feel better as you get into your work this week - I hope so anyway. Having something to focus on besides our grief does help a little. Don't know if you like to read, but there are a great many very helpful books on grief out there. They can help you realize that your feelings are quite normal -- as well as all your friends here at DS.
Peace - Doye (rhymes with "joy")

I am so sorry for your setback. Don't you wonder when (and IF) it will ever end? And what is it about traveling? Did your wife go on the road with you ever? I find I mostly miss having hubby sitting next to me, on road trips, or just running to the grocery store. Plus, being in the "privacy" (where no one else can hear me) of my car, I feel like I have more permission to grieve...and I cry a LOT while driving, too.

Hopefully, you are feeling better after sharing this...

The same thing is happening to me. I am taking this as just another phase. I am near 7 months and the last few weeks have been harder and more emotional than months 4, 5, 6. Maybe some of the numbness lingered longer than I believed and the raw emotions are not as inhibited. All I know is that from talking to friends who have gone through this and what I have read in this site it's not at all unusual to have set backs and you have to just go with it and keep telling yourself it's part of a process that has no set timetable and no set outcome, but eventually it becomes ok. Believe that it will get easier even when it gets harder. You have friends in this journey.

I lost my fiance on 3/18/13. These past few weeks have been so hard for some reason. They seem to be harder than the first few months. I seemed much stronger then. Yes, the weekends are hard, especially Sunday. I seem to cry at any little thing these days. I just miss my sweet Amy so much.

My husband died march 30th 2013 I have good days good weeks and then I will have a few weeks where I cry all the time and miss him so much it seems like he just passed. DS has helped me so much my friends and family just don't understand. Its really hard for me to explain how I am feeling.

I can relate to what you are feeling. My wife passed away due to breast cancer. I could not sleep last night and the high point of my day today was working on paperwork for my upcoming bankruptcy, not one of my favorite days to say the least.
You are not lone, it's been lmost 6 months for me here and I seem to be baksliding. I've been told that is not unusul for us at around this time frame.
My point here is, you are not alone in the way you are feeling and the feelings you are experiencing most all us have went or are going through right now. Try to hang I there, I know it's tough, grief is not for sissies, but trust me that it will get better.

I holed up in my house for the past 4 days. Its 6 1/2 months for me. My son came by today, to check on me. I am setting here watching Bon Jovi on tv. Crying. I am on a Lost Hwy of life. I hope things get better soon, for all of us.

I am sorry for your painful, dreadful day and I totally relate.
I am ok for the most part when I am with others,( unless they are being kind, I lose it in the face of kindness) but when I am alone it all goes downhill rapidly,
My two teariest places are the shower and a car. Make it three and add bed.
I alternate between utter despair and brief bouts of optimism. It's so hard to make any forward progress when all you want is to go back, before this happened. I would give anything and everything to have him back, to feel loved, understood, supported, safe, optimistic and happy.
Now it's such a rollercoaster and endless nightmare. It's so frustrating that we have to experience all of it in order to come out the other side, whatever that looks like. I'd prefer to be woken when the worst of it has passed.
I know I must pass through this valley of despair but somehow manage not to be here long enough to erect a condo.

Take good care and be kind and patient with yourself.

Ive been through that also. Trips alone are hard.

I sold my husbands truck this last weekend and it set me back. Ive cried on and off for two days.