He is with you and beside you and your family. Own it and believe in it. Hugs, D P.S. We are never really "alone", although we may feel that we are at times. The spirit lives on in those we love.

I don't know what you believe regarding an afterlife and we all have different beliefs. There are books written by those who have experienced or believe they have experienced a death experience. This topic is controversial to suggest things on a public forum, but if you would want to talk by message I'm sure we could converse. Sharon

Just wanted to add, you are very early in your loss and missing their physical presence is normal. I hope I didn't misunderstood your post. Sharon

I spent last Friday night with my step daughter's family. She has four of our fourteen grandchildren and lives three hours away so we always had to do an overnight when we visited.

Our favorite thing when Ed and I stayed overnight was all the kids jumped into bed with us in the morning. Sometimes they would get so excited that would come in the middle of the night! Kind of like Christmas Eve and waiting for Santa.

Ed and I just loved to have them cuddle with us and we would tell them stories and listen to their little hearts tell us all the wonderful things that grandkids do tell.

Anyway, last Saturday morning, right around 6 AM the youngest came tip toeing into my room. Then two more and finally the sleepyhead joined us around 7. The oldest said to me, "Grandma, Pappaw was the silly one. Can you be silly now that he is gone?" I melted.

Yes, it is different but it can still be wonderful. I started to imitate his voice and tell some silly stories about him and before you knew it, we were all giggling and then they started telling some stories in his big deep voice. Precious.

I had my moments of missing him so much it hurt but I had more moments of loving those grands with a fierceness that keeps him close to me. Especially since they are not my "blood" grandchildren, it is more important than ever because they are such a connection to him.

I pray you will find peace and enjoyment in those special moments with your grands again. It is definitely hard but I wouldn't miss it for the world.

In my heart I know that Ed is watching down on us just smiling over our love for each other.

Sometimes it is bittersweet. You want to share those special moments and it does hurt that your mate is not here.But love and joy your grandkids give you Is real and now, we need to treasure what we have. This is so easy to say and hard to do. Take care, Patti

I understand what you are saying..I have felt this too. Our grand babies are such a joy...and then we get the yearning for the only other person that could really understand how much we love them.Then comes the How the frick can I be looking at someone soooooooooooo beautiful....so perfect and feel soooooooooo bad...I don't have an answer but I can tell you this from my corner of the world....when I look at my babies I see everything..starting with 2 young punks that didn't have a clue but they would make it...to the 2 old punks who again didn't have a clue but would be strong enough to separate...leaving one to watch them from here while the other does it from over there....do I believe your honey is watching them...yes yes I do. Now here comes the hardest part of all ...keeping ourselves strong enough so they can ...I still fall down but its getting less and on the days that I just don't want to get back up I think not of him but I think of the babies and when I look at my babies I see..................

First time my 3yo grandson came over after my husband died I burst into tears multiple times. He was grandpa's buddy. The cute things he said and did just emphasize the loss. He makes me smile too. It's all such a mix of emotions. It does get a little easier over time but I often ask Pj out loud if he's seeing this. I believe he is and that he will watch over his bucko. I try and keep his memory alive for Anthony showing him photos and telling him how much he's loved.
With you in spirit. Liz

There isn't a moment of joy with my 7 grandchildren, that I wish with all my heart, their "Sabby" couldn't be there to share with me.
The five elder ones, all have vivid memories of their "Sabby" they adored him so much. He has forever imprinted them , with his wonderful, fun, joyous attitude to life.
Without family, life is empty. It's so easy to fall into despondency, then, I realize I have to keep going for Ben and our family.
Hug to all the grand parents.......Sandra

Two of my grandchildren have never met grandpa. My daughter felt sad that they have never had the chance to be hugged and loved by him. My duty now is to give them all the love and more to make up for their loss. Yesterday, my two year old grandson was looking through pictures on my phone. I have shown him pictures of grandpa from young age till the time of his passing. I asked him who is this and he replied "grandpa". He would go to my room (at their home) and kiss grandpa's picture. It is so precious to see him knowing my husband whom he had never met.

My Granddaughter whose Dad abandoned them 4 years earlier had Grandpa as her father figure. They were really close. At age 17 she still has down times. Recently went to counseling to get on something to help her but the counselor felt meds were not the answer that getting close to graduating she needed that father figure she had been missing. Has a great step father but he is involved with his 3 girls which upsets her as she does not have. These kind of things are tough for kids . This 5 year period in July we are going to go to where his ashes are spread - and do something special. I think it will help us all but she needs it more I think at this time. Sure wish he was here my Grandkids could sure use his calm wisdom