i am so sorry for your loss... i lost my barry in my arms on april 9th,... i too long for one last do over...i too look at his space expecting to see him sitting there quietly admiring me like he did and then i realize it is void and empty. i feel it all; you are not alone. hugs

Your post could have been written by me about Joe's and my life together. We used to sit on the deck after work and have a cup of coffee and discuss our days activities and make plans for our future. Thank goodness for our pets. There would be no life here without them because I don't feel alive. So they are a great help. I don't even try to cook anymore. It's heat and serve for me. I feel your pain and emptyness and offer you my sincerest sympathy for what you are going through. May God bless you today in some special way.
Kathleen

Lois, I understand your day completely. Yesterday was a gorgeous day - one where Mike would have been working on his boat , getting ready for fishing and I would sit in the sun nearby chatting. We'd be doing the yard work - just enjoying the first nice day in a while.

I hate days like this too, where the emptiness seems to just slap you in the face.

I had a sad day yesterday too. I did get some planting done, but the pain really hit me hard yesterday. Today is better. I already had a Mothers' Day call from a friend and I have plans for a bike ride! I don't know why some days are so awful but they sure are.

8 months today and my first mother's day without him. I will also be spending the day alone for the most part. I will try to find things to do outside that keep my body busy and maybe my mind occupied. It does seem to come in waves.. Hugs to you all.
Rhonda

How funny this post was written.
This morning I opened my dresser drawer (I just moved many of my things into it as I moved bedrooms around) And I slowly said
Roger, you used to open these drawers every morning, took out your jeans and underwear & now here I am opening them. Than you would go down to Gold Creek & have coffee with the guys.
And now here I am doing the same thing starting my day - feed horses, shoveled stalls, watered them, drained some water down the ditch, feed the dogs & cats, took a shower & now I opening your drawer. I said It seems so long ago you did this, but only 9 months & 8 days ago. I did not cry I just rubbed the drawer & remembered, a little sad.
I wish I could change it but I can't.
God please help me remember the good things, forgive the bad, find a good moment for a smile & please God find a way to keep me going in every way. Amen

I am so sorry we all have to go through this loneliness and pain. If only we could have them back in our arms again. I am also thankful for my dog but I know she senses my sadness when she looks up at me...wanting to sit on my lap more and more trying to fill the void I am feeling. Thanks to you Lois and everyone here for your ongoing support. Sending you warm hugs and prayers, Lu Ann