Cliff was only 55 when he died, and I was only 50. It was not what I thought was going to happen. Like you, I always figured he would go first - men usually do and there was a 5-year difference. But 55?? We were talking about our future plans Sunday night, and Monday morning he died. Everything felt very bleak that first year....

Not all of life's surprises are bad surprises. I know that sounds like bullshit Pollyanna stuff right now. It did to me, too. But there is a future, and it does not have to be terrible. Sometimes the good sneaks up on us, too.

I am nearing 8 years now. I don't count months anymore, I count years. That sounds terrible, but what I can tell you is that it was worth it to hang on and not give up. And God knows I had several reasons to want to give up, but my sons kept me going, just as I know your son keeps you going, too. It will be worth it to keep trying. I would have missed so much if I hadn't held on.

I hope for better days for you and your son, and I keep you in my good thoughts and prayers always.

Love and Hugs,
Martha

Amy was 48 when she died I will be 57 next month. We joked about how she would have to take care of me in my old age. Martha I am still counting the days (248) and wish I could move to months and years.I have had the very best in life with Amy so if I am to be alone for the rest of it, so be it. I am just incredibly grateful for the short 20 years I had on this earth with the love of my life. ~Pete

I am hoping that I have a choice in my future, that life does not have to be bleak and if i am alone I can fill my days with worthwhile things. I have the same hope for you! Hugs Patti

my husband was 52 when he died, he wouldve turned a heavenly 53 two months later in may. I was only 44, just had a birthday and am now 45. He use to tell me, he would outlive me, his grandpa lived to be 93. Then very shortly thereafter was crushed while fixing his truck. I wasnt there when it happened, but i am the one who found him. He had no medical problems, healthy like an ox...It was such a shock, somedays, I still cant believe hes gone.. big hugs carla.. hang in there.. it doesnt get better, it just seems to be more accepted as the months go by...

Danny was 41, and I am only 39. He passed suddenly and even I am scared I'm going to be alone forever. The future seems scary and even though I have tons of great friends, I really can imagine being with anyone else. I'm grateful that Even though we only got two years together, I got to have the fairytale love and a soulmate.. Big bug