Forgot that I wanted to say thank you for being here and letting me get my real feelings out .

Its hard Gary but everyone here on the site knows what your going through. I will be 5 months on the 19th of Jan. My anniversary is on Jan 11 we were only married 3 years and together for 6 years. Hang in there. Vent in your journal or on the discussions. hugs,Donna

Garry, sorry you have to be here, but you are welcome. Hope you can be good to yourself.

Garry, I feel for you. I'm sorry it hurts so much. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better for you. I said a prayer for all of us going through this pain. Margie

Dear Garry,
At four months the pain is almost unbearable. I wish I could tell you you'll feel better quickly, but the fact is it takes awhile. My heart breaks for you as you struggle through this. I wish I had any kind of advice or help for you. All I can say is that there are many here who have made it to a better place, and you will too. It's a hard journey, but I'm here for you along with all your DS friends. Weekends are hard, and sometimes this board doesn't have many people responding, but that doesn't mean they aren't thinking of you and praying for you. I hope you have a little peace tonight. One moment at a time, my friend.
Linda

Hi Garry -- you are in the right place. Ain't no pain like this pain and no hurt like this hurt. No quick fixes other than it takes time and lots of it, and you've just got to go through it to get through it -- not a one of us can go around it. Seems like 4 months is when I became semi-aware that mentally I was getting worse and starting to shut down. But by 6 months, I was on medicine and started to do better ever so slowly. There are a whole lot of nice caring hurting people here, and we all just kind of help each other along. As for what you're feeling, at least here we all can relate. Truly we are sorry for your loss. ~ Scott

Thinking about you this afternoon and sharing the pain. I love the vivid dreams of my Swedeheart, but the aftermath is the misery of remembering he is gone. Try to treat yourself as kindly as she would have. Hugs ~ Bailey ~

Gary. I want to give you a hug. I know the pain seems unbearable at times but you hsvevtobyry to keep moving forward. At 9 months I still have heartache and miss my husband so much but I know I have to be kind to myself as you do too. We are all in this together and one day so will every other couple we know will have to endure this also. We all feel your pain. Hugs n Luv to you

Garry,
Sorry your struggling ! We have all been there and it's so hard it has been 14 months for me and I still wake up sobbing sometimes and it really sucks ! I hold on to the love we shared so tight these days and I still struggle missing him and his presence here on earth . At four months I think the fog was just starting to lift . Also I have had like after the holidays set back I am working through right now. So it is nice to know this place and all these wonderful people are here for whatever we are feeling or dealing with.
Take care of you!
LisaAnn

Crying with you Gary, so sorry.
meggyk

Gary Ive had several dreams of sean, that have caused me to go into the bathroom, and hold onto the sink, while I cried my butt off. It;s good to let it out, vent and get your feelings out anytime, that's why we are all here, not only to borrow a shoulder to cry on, but also to borrow someone elses's for awhile. Much love, and gentle hugs carla

We hurt deeply because we love deeply. It's a hard road, but you can do this. Sorry you had to join us, but we're here for you.

waking up crying before dawn is one of the harder things we have to do. I have felt that pain too many times., you are Not alone here.

I am thankful that you found this site. It has been two years four months, never thought it would get better, but believe it does. I continue to pray for you and all who are on this journey. May you comforted with all comfort, be strengthened and above all have the peace to be a overcomer.

Thank you so much. Last night I had another dream this one though was sweet, I hugged her and kissed her, I didn't want to wake up, but I fell back to sleep thinking about it. This was my first good dream with her since.