Perfectly normal. I remember everything being too easy after my husband passed. Then the days got harder and harder. At 5 months I crashed.

Grief is a roller coaster of emotions. Yours are very raw right now as your loss is fairly new. Just keep plugging, one day at a time. Healing does come, but we don't control grief. It controls us.

It's been 2 months since my husband died. He died Thanksgiving weekend. Then came Christmas, I really don't remember too much as it went by really fast and I was numb. Well now it's a new year and I know he won't be here with me anymore. It has been worse for me these past few weeks. I cry alot at night and in the morning. I force myself to get up and keep busy. I joined a support group for people who have lost a love one. It's been really good for me and I have learned alot by going. Crying is part of the healing process. Not sure when this will stop but keep coming here and do some reading on grieving for lost of a love one. The best to you. I know how you are feeling. I feel the same way.

Your feelings are very normal. We all have gone through these phases. The weeks and months after our loss, we are light clothes in a clothes dryer, just tumbling over and over and wondering when it will end. Nothing seems normal because it isn't normal. We are not supposed to lie in bed alone and never hear the sound of their voices again. We have all felt the agony during the first year especially. You will get through this. Life will stop hurting so terrribly in time. Support groups, reading books on grief, keeping in touch with friends and loved ones, and participating in church events and being a regular on DS have helped me struggle through me deepest moments of grief. You are not alone. We support you. Come here often!

I think grief is the most un-normal experience I've ever experienced. Your reactions, I must say, are very normal. After having our life pulled out from under us we float through the storms of existence trying to find ourself in this chaos. Then ever so slowly, we hardly notice, the horizon begins to dawn and we strive to find the normalacy once again. You are progressing and you are here where we all find our own self in the thoughts of others. Sharon