I am so sorry that you feel that way. There is always someone in the world willing to offer unconditional love. Start with yourself. You have to love yourself more than anyone else every can. I have felt the same way and often have to remember that i love myself more than anyone else can. It is a hard thing to have to deal with on your own, and i am sorry that you feel this way. Just know that you are not alone in this endever. I hope things get better for you.

Maybe you can talk to these people who you are testing. These must be individuals who you WANT to love you unconditionally so it seems as though it would be healthy for you and these people to practice communication skills with each other. I am guessing that your rebellious decisions are somewhat subconscious so maybe you can explain that to these people. Like, how you feel and why you feel you are treating them they way you are.I'm not sure how you view or feel about yourself but maybe it will help you if you try to find unconditional love from within yourself first. That way you don't have to look for it in other people and if you do find it coming from another person, well than, thats just icing on the cake. One way that might help you is if you start a list of some of your good qualities and things you have done for other people as well as for yourself. Keep this list in a very accessible place, like on a fridge, mirror or dresser, that way you can be reminded of just how beautiful of a person you are AND that way you can add to it anytime you think of something else... I've never tried this before and actually I just made it up BUT in theory it sounds like it could help??

Thanks for your advice!!! i did talk to the people and we are working on the problems. I greatly appreciate your insight. I am doing okay with finding love for myself, I just discovered I didnt like the way i was treated and I was demanding i tto be different. Since I caught on, I feel better.

Thats good to hear please let us know if there is anything we can do for you.

Dear Liveinlightnow...My sweet,you will always self destruct when you seek finding such things outside and from others..Thee ONLY love one can depend on that will bring about true love is the love of self.Meaning stop looking for others to give you what you have access to having all along every waking moment you are here and breathing and living this life..I have been you and only recently learned this and can i just say.There is complete freedom in loving yourself because you no longer notice if or who is loving you,you learn to no longer place your concern in it because your love cup is filled already and doesn't need to be filled..Amazing things start to happen then..Because when you love yourself you are showing others how to love you instead of asking them to...This probably seems stupid to some because it did to me all my life until one day you get it. And I got it the moment I CHOSE love,lived love,breathed love,felt love and let others live and let live I was just gonna chose to be love and be free and happy for the first time in all my life..I did this WHILE nursing a broken heart from a 3 year failed relationship,that left me homeless and him finding someone to replace me with before we even broke up...I woke up one day and just chose to keep on loving starting with myself first.Because how others treat us is by how we show them we treat ourselves first...But before I finish and sign off...I love you