is to SIT DOWN, SIT STILL, AND CALM THE FUCK DOWN
Wow.
Because I have been wound up for DAYS holy shit. I went to the doctor this morning (not ths psych dr, just the dr) and I could NOT for the life of me sit still in the waiting room. I wanted to pace SO bad. Past few days I've been incredibly hyper to the point where it gets uncomfortable. SHIT.
AAANNNDDD I've got a wedding I have to go to tomorrow. It's outside. In july. Gross heat. Gross sitting still while there's so much to look at and not be able to fidget because I don't want to DARE make anyone look away from the bride. That'd be a real asshole thing to do, but I can not sit STILL for my life. And if I DON'T get myself calmed down enough to sit through a seremony and end up not being able to go, I'll look like an asshole because it's a family member.
Plus, I can't seem to shut up. I've been like this for a good two weeks now and it kills me when I have to be quiet. Just like right now. Had a friend pick me up from the doctor (had no other way home), and to thank him, gave him gas money, said "lunch, your choice", and "if you need to just drop me off and leave, if you want to stay a while and play Mario Kart, watch a movie, whatever, whatever you want/need to do, fine." It was incredibly nice of him. He brought me back and we played a few rounds of Mario Kart since he doesn't have to go to work until about 6:30.
Well, I noticed he was nodding off. That mofuka didn't tell me that he had only had an hour the night before after a couple back to back shifts (close late, go home, shower, eat, get up 2 hours later to open) and 40 hours before that. SO I forced him to take a nap because no way in hell am I letting a friend drive that tired. I even said "BOY why didn't you tell me? Would have found another way" It was "well, hadn't seen you in a while, I may be moving out of state soon, wanted to see you anyway" Great friend, but damn, son! LOL Would have called a taxi or something!! But anyway, like right now he's taking a snooze before he has to drive back and here I am typing out this long thing because it's killing me to sit still and keep quiet. Just let my buddy take a nap. Because damn. He deserves it and I don't want him falling asleep at the wheel!
IN CONCLUSION (sorry for the book) my POA: MAKE MYSELF SIT AND PLAY THE QUIET GAME OMG
