I havent posted in a while, but I wanted to update the site on my progress. I now have a restraining order against my 23 year old daughter/sociopath. She tried to fight it but lost. She actually provided the court the proof that she was involved in the drive by shooting of my home in 2012. She admitted that she had wished me dead so she could have the money my father left when he passed. I am in awe sometimes of the fact that I do not miss her or wonder if she is ok. I continue to look over my shoulder and take precautions so she cannot murder me, but she is not the first thing I think of waking up or the last thing I think of before sleep anymore. I have a sense of peace knowing that she and her drama are not a part of my world. She cannot continue to abuse or manipulate my younger daughters anymore either because they are covered by the restraining order. My 16 year old is angry with me because of this, but if it keeps her safe, I will accept her anger. I meditate frequently and I send unconditional love to my 16 year old. I am getting better at staying in the present, not worrying about the future or dwelling in the past. I have worked on rebuilding familial relationships that suffered in part because of my denial of my sociopaths behaviors. I am feeling hopeful, peaceful and positive these days. I take baby steps but they are baby steps forward, not back. I am never going back.