I think many of us have been here. Eight months out and I still have days like this. I feel hopeless and still have many days where I know i'm surrounded by narcs and have to deal with them. However, the situation has made me open my eyes to see all the toxicity in my life regarding people. I have been slowly removing them, and focusing on the people who treat me well, understand what I am going through and do not tell me to just "get over it". I try to remind myself every day he did me a favor. IT IS NOT ME - IT IS NOT YOU. It is them, even though you keep fighting those thoughts. I have deleted facebook, stopped trying to date again and do what I can to focus on me and be with good people. I am restarting therapy. I took a break when I started a new job, but know I need to move forward with my life. Life is hard there is no doubt, and when we go through this it makes it almost unbearable. But I will attest, I was at the lowest point in my life. I was one of the strongest people most of my friends knew, and I was on the edge of just wanting to jump off, because I couldn't take the pain anymore. As time goes on, I know I may never be able to trust someone again to be in a relationship. That maybe someone doesn't want me, but does that make life not worth living? It will be what I make of it, so I try everyday to get a little bit closer to where I want to be. I live with a lot of pain still, but nothing like I did eight months ago. Find people you trust, join co-dependents anonymous if you cannot afford therapy. See if you can find groups somewhere that are at low or no cost. Its hard, I feel for you, and i'm sorry you are suffering, but why is your life worth nothing because some pitiful piece of shit treated you like he's treated everyone else? I cancelled facebook because the few that I trusted posted a picture of all of them with the asshole and his whore and I flipped, and they defended him after telling me they knew he was a dirtbag, so I now realize the whole family plays along and is just as bad as him. I know he's doing to here what he did to me, only she's a bigger sucker..... Good luck. It wasn't that I couldn't make him happy, it wasn't that you couldn't make him happy - it's that NO ONE can make them happy.

So true. No one can make them happy. It has nothing to do With us at all. This disorder can not be cured.

It is true: I read that there is no known treatment for this mental disorder; what's more, I read that attempts to treat it with therapy have shown to make it even worse.