contact help and ask..... if he reads here u can use that to your advantage.... mine reads here i know....it upsets him more than me

yes u will have to ask ds to remove it. we cant.

i know, i have gotten strange responses from the stalker in the last few days due to posting things about him here and on another advice message board, i think i have hurt/upset them. im not sure it was a good idea to write this here about them, on the internet forums. they followed me to the other message board, let me know it was them and that they read my post accusing them of being a psychopath, then they made fun of me with a reply talking about all of my faults what is wrong with me, to say to me you think im a psychopath? look at you, your overweight, you have no job, your family dosnt talk to you, your father did this and this, you mom is insane, you have no friends etc... other details they knew about me of what im not happy about my own life. telling me that im a loser.

i must have hurt them, did something i didnt mean to do by posting about them on the net. i dont know what is going on on their side, to have such terrible anger directed at me, to tell me look at you your a loser

anyways i dont want to be the mean one or attack anyone over the net, ive never been like this. i feel like im becoming an angry monster. of course i dont know if the person is a psychopath, that is for a psychiatrist to decide. maybe i was jumping to conclusions becuase i was very upset, confused by the stalker, going through something being irrational. that is the thing when theres no real life comunication if it is a cyber hacker or faker on the internet, people get confused paranoid over what things mean.

but maybe it is best not to talk about people on the internet.. im not looking for any revenge or accuse people of things. im hoping any situation can be quiet.

who is doing this to you? your stalker or someone else? did you use real names orho would they know its really you? from being hacked???? you have every right to come here and say anything you need to we are here for you always dont let these assholes scare you away. i hope your ok and dont listen to there crap its not the truth your a good person not these name they try to hurt you with.

No situation is quiet with a psycho. And you haven't used anybody's names. You are quite entitled to get support for yourself.

And .... if it hurts him, well a) don't read here b) don't treat people in such a way that it 'hurts you' when you read what was said!

How are YOU being the mean one? Honestly DONT buy it, this is gaslighting. More than likely he hasn't seen it and is bluffing you. Unless he really does know about this site (as mine does) he often phones me ranting about what I have written.

But.... well its true. I don't know why he reads it, if it hurts him. take care of yourself. Set up a new account, use a different name. But do not change yourself and YOUR needs for him!!!

This is control. Its your life, and your right. Its not illegal to ask for support from a support board.

Don't ever read ANYTHING that he posts, texts, writes. Everything he says or does is to hurt you. You know that. He is evil, but extremely unimportant in your life now. IGNORE HIM. That is what they hate.

if you right click 'task manager" at the bottom of your screen, and check out "processes" in that, you should be able to see if anybody is on your computer that shouldn't be, in order to be sure if your computer was comprimised.

at this olde point in my life, i don't care too much if any ex-tormenters can read my stuff----cause then maybe they can realize i'm not as stupid as they thought, and that i am also willing to expose the stuff I went through.

Never let them take control of your life by submitting to their demands. If you choose to do something, do it because you want to do it not because they bullied you into it.

Nobody and i mean Nobody can get access to your medicle records unless they have a subpoena! No doctor would allow a private detective access or anyone else for that fact, access to your records unless he was subpoenaed to do so. As for the camera's in your house etc and the bugging of your phone....they are just trying to mess with your head and psyche you out. Unless the law enforcement are stalking you - and i very much doubt it! Dont let them mind fuck you into believing that shit! I would bet money someone who knows you, like an ex-employee you worked with or a vindictive ex boss or psychopath ex partner or someone who knows your family is behind all this shit! If they know things that are in your journal and know which sites you visit etc its probably because you have a trojan or virus that is allowing them backdoor entry into your computer. Go get it checked out by a tech or go online and look up malwarebytes anti-rootkit and malwarebytes anti-malware and scan your computer for malware and spyware. I had heaps of infections on my computer and had probably got one of the 1st ones only a week after i got my laptop due to downloading a emoticon thing for my im messages. I read that IM messaging is one of the easiest ways for hackers to download or hack into your computer without your knowledge. Those trojans had been on my computer for the longest time before i was even aware of them and it explains alot of weird stuff!

Change your cell phone number and do not put the number in your computer or give it out to anyone online. One thing i have never done is give my phone number out to anyone online. As for the musician, who does he want to be? Eminem?? Most artist/musicians i know write from their own life experience, they dont need to go online and find someone who is vunerable and stalk and exploit them. If they did they wouldnt get much respect for it. Anyways please dont let them break your spirit. Everyone makes mistakes, they are probably far from perfect themselves.

AMEN TO THAT !!!!

thanks for replying everyone,

im scared to post here because i found out my stalker (the musician) is readng what i type, replying with angry replies to me letting me know they dont like what i wrote about them.

im not sure if it is wrong to post about someone who is bothering me. vent about what am going through.

the stalker knows someone who is friends with a relative of mine, that might be how they got some personal info,and information on my medical history, life,personal details on me, i never give out my cell phone number over the internet.

they found my cell phone number on their own by hacking, stalking or asking people who know me.

i never give out personal information online such as my phone number, last name etc. but he found me still.

he probably sent me the virus from IM messages because he has been chatting to me online for 2 yrs under fake identities, forming internet relationships with me to get me to talk to hm. he told me he loves me each time he chatted to me, told me he is my husband and not to get any boyfriend besides him.how could i have anyways if ive been suffering from a life threatening illness.
i even told him many times, he ignored it as if he dosnt believe me or it dosnt suit his delusion about me.

maybe he fell in love with me, then thought of the online romances where he would chat to me under a fake identity by im all the time for years as real relationships. i think i heard that he wanted to leave his wife and kids to marry me. according to what he was telling me, things i heard. i didnt know about that and cannot be in any real life relationship due to my illness, disabilities

he is angry i didnt go to meet him and be his real girlfriend, move in with him whatever he thought.

maybe he thought im his real girlfriend by chatting to me on the net almost every day, even tho i didnt know what was going on. so he used that as his real life experience to write the songs about me.

maybe he thinks he knows me? he kept telling me that im out to get him, stop playing games against hm (gaslighting)

so he thinks i hurt him so he is out to get revenge at me by writing horrible mean songs about me and humiliating me. its horrible mean angry songs to make fun of me, give me a difficult time,accuse me of thing

he used to im me and make fun of my grandfather who was dying, insulting things.

he told me something about punishing me because i didnt love him. because i wouldnt go to meet him in person or go marry him.

i dont think he is respectful as a musican , misusing talent, make money by bullying a person. that is where i met him first because i was a fan of the songs, went to a few of the shows, he remembered, noticed me.

im not sure who he is trying to be but if his real life song writing inspiration is falling in love with someone then stalking them while they are going through something difficult then getting revenge at them then that is not good, that is mean, terrible.

the cd will be out soon in a few months, i dont even want to listen to the songs, im terrorized at the lyrics i heard sofar. i had to do everything i could not to cry. it is severely hurtful , very very painful after hearing the bullying songs terrorizing me in them.

they are done recording all the songs , what can i do to stop his bands terror, bully campaign against me? i was once one of the biggest supporters of them,street teamed for them over 5 yrs ago before i had any illness
my instincts tell me to do something dont just sit there and allow more people in life to bully me, allow them to embarras me like this.

but they already wasted thousands of dollars recording everything over months in recording studios.

they would be broke financally if they didnt sell the dumb songs.

they have a big fan base too, lots of cds sold, touring around the country. they are popular here. but no they are not like eminem

i dont think they will admit publicly what and who the songs are about, they will probably say something vague or guess the meaning, or interpet it your way. songs can be interpreted to 100 meanings

they told me in the im, they even copied some of the phrases i typed to them in im last year that ended up in the lyrics of songs on their last ep album. i didnt get 1 dollar for those lyrics they got from me by pretending to be fake people online

they dont want to talk to me, he only wants to do mind games over the internet, or sing about me. that is ot normal.too chicken to talk directly to me.

reminds me sort of of the singer taylor swift how she dates 12 guys a year, suddenly feels rejected or something terribly wrong with them. then dumps them, dosnt talk to them and comes out with a big hit about them the next year complaining about how awful they are and the things she thinks they did wrong to her. john mayer was very hurt by that. thats not normal socially. to give messages to people in cds, songs tap dance whatever. instead of pick up the phone, write them a letter like normal people

if the stalker guy is too humiliated of me or too chicken to be honest and socially normal to me, then why have anything to do with me at all its weird. i went to ask him what is going on after he put things about me on his webpage and when he saw me he turned his back to me to make sure i didnt say hello.

maybe because his wife and children were like 15 feet away behind him, which i later found out

then weeks later he s contacting me in the internet needing to chat to me, doing mind games hinting who he is to make me think im paranoid.

im a worry wart, when something is bothering me or emotional hurtful. i obsses over it with bad thoughts running in my mind the entire day for days, weeks, years. i had ptsd due to other abuse i went through from other abusers since i was a little kid. i dont know if i ever will get over my ptsd trauma from the abuse i went through

but this adds to it with new bullies, i had bullies in school when i was younger.

i have social anxiety disorder, so its easier for me to interact, communicate online. im a big introvert so its very embarassing what he has done or to humiliate me publicly on the songs singing to thousands of people. i feel like ill have panick attacks from it because it directly affects my social anxiety, ptsd from past abuse. i dont like to be center of attention. i have based my life time survival on having a shell to live in so that subconscipousely id be safe from abusers who might threaten my survival (i was almost killed by a past abuser thats the reason). i feel threatened severely if i cant be in my shell safe from people noticing me or humiliating or bullying me. i hate anything public about me especially negative or humiliating things, im a private person my whole life

it triggers my ptsd i had since childhood makes me think that in im severe danger, freaked out.

im very sensitive so i cannot deal with others being hurtful, insulting to me..

by them making songs about me it has ruined what i spent decades trying to get over. im 29 now. it is doing serious psychological damage, ive been having nightmares too

not sure what i can do, this person dosnt care,as long as they can do their revenge against me for not having a child with them or marrying them like they hoped for. and if they can make tons of money by selling the cd, singing the mean songs for audiences then that is what matters to them. people will not know the horrible inspiration behind the songs theyve been listening to.

meanwhile im at home suffering,and cannot work and that dosnt matter to them. they dont care

people dont know what ive been through because i havent told anyone, only my parents and they wont talk to me. i have no friends, i know some girls who are fans of his band, they will buy his new cd, hear the concerts and i didnt tell them because i dont want any dumb rumors . but they will probably think the songs are about a random girl if i dont tell them anythingg

i dont want to sound harsh but if your expecting to find "good" people online its not going to happen. the internet is not a good place to find anyone who is really who they say they are. well you know what i mean. it is flooded with socipaths and if your lonely looking for friends here you are a walking target for a sociopath. maybe you could get into therapy or counseling to deal with some of your issues from being bullied in the past and the abuse in your life. this will keep happening over and over unless you find out why you are attracting these kind of people into your life. also you need to stay away from this guy or band or what ever it is. have you ever met him in person??? you dont want to spend the rest of your life hiding on the computer its no way to live take it from me. have you ever gotten any help before this?

i did meet him in person a few times. im not looking for friends on the computer but i have an autoimmune disease so im not allowed to leave the house or it could kill me. being around people puts me at risk due to bacteria people carry. so ive been home bound, shut in for 2 yrs. so there is no option for me to find real life friends. i am dying and have not found a cure yet. i dont honestly know if ill be alive still in a few months.

i know why ive been a target i have it figured out. because my ability to interact with other people in the past 4 yrs is impaired, i have mental/neurological disabilities due to my illness. i have had trouble with everyone who is not my doctor in the past 4 yrs. even my own family cannot interact normally with me anymore due to my illness, slurred speech, memory trouble, other things

i never had problems before that, my only abusers before that were my own parents who i didnt chose, another adult when i was 3 yrs old. children at school until i was 12, so i never did anything to bring abusers to me.

i dont have the option of going out of the house to talk to a therapist. i did in the past years ago

i cant really stay away from abusers because my parents abuse me and have control over me which is another issue i didnt talk about. i live in their house in a closed off seperate room, no one can go to. i dont know how to go away from them because of my serious illness and other things my father did to make sure i cannot be ok or independent. but i can focus on myself and taking care of myself , even if im surrounded by mean people who are doing things that are not the best

but thats an entirely different issue i dont know if i want to talk about yet. its worse than the one i posted about.

oh sweety i had no idea and im sorry for the advice i gave you you must be living in hell being so isolated along with everything else. i didnt realize what you are going through and i want to say im so sorry. i isolate really bad, always have but mine is self inflicted so i have no one to blame but myself. i dont know why i do it or did as a kid. i always felt i didnt belong i suppose. you have to be so careful with people online im on a social website and its so bad i dont even go there anymore. its like a sociopaths play ground.
are you safe at home where you are now with your parents???

im safe now at my parents house, but i can explain about that another time.

yes about the internet it can be weird. i dont go to the chat room anymore, i barely go to face book anymore. so im not talking to those peopleanymore, i met alot of crazy people in the chat rooms or foreigners from 3rd world countries, criminal type of people. many liars there. the internet does attract many weirdos. ill be more careful and dont make friends with people on the net because they are strangers and i wouldnt speak to them if i were to meet them in real life at a waiting room or in line at a supermarket.
not the type of people i would willingly assocate with in real lfe, if i were able to go out now and find friends