I saw a commercial that hints at the fact that Michelle Duggar might be expecting again. I love that show and their family is so inspiring, but I think this time if she is prego I am going to lose it! I know I'm horrible but I'm upset because I'm doing everything I can to be pregnant, even used Clomid, pre-seed, and mucinex and and I keep getting BFN's. Maybe I'm working myself up about nothing, it's probably her daughter-in- law that's prego.

I went to pick up my son from school today because I left work early and there were two big huge prego women, talking about their symptoms, and feeling each others belly. I just smiled at them and then I cried all the way home. That's when I realized that I probably haven't come as far along in my healing and acceptance of my loss as I thought I had. I just saw someone else in this board got a BFP and I'm very happy for her, I can't wait until its my turn. I'm hoping that by my birthday in Nov I will be.

I think I might stay away from this board for awhile because sometimes it gets me thinking too much about how many of us are painfully waiting for a rainbow. It is beginning to hurt too much.

Best of luck to all and wishing you all BFP's with happy endings very, very soon!!