First - I'm sorry to hear you are going through this.

I can definitely empathize with your cycle of emotions. I do the same thing. I get all hopeful for another try, and then I have that huge let-down when I have my period. It is difficult to stay positive, especially when you've been trying for a while. I have a large extended family, and no one has had fertility issues - new pregnancies/babies coming along all the time!

It is tough to stay positive all of the time, but I've realized that you shouldn't be expected to. I've started saying "I'm going to cry for an hour the day of my period and then put it away." Dwelling on it can stress you out and the stress just makes it more difficult to conceive. I've also started keeping a journal. Especially when it's something difficult to talk about with others in your life - that journal can really help. It's a place to vent without judgement, and when the journal is full - I just burn the pages.

Have you been working with a fertility specialist at all? I am scheduled to visit one tomorrow, and I'm nervous/hopeful.

I also have a rather large family. My own mother doesn't get why I would be sad about a pregnancy announcement. She has 10 children so she obviously never had fertility problems and can't relate....luckily I do have a few SILs who have been through it too and I can always talk to them. Now they have their precious babies so even though I know they still understand, their advice is starting to mean less to me. :/ I haven't been to a specialist yet, just my obgyn. I'm now starting cycle 5 and they will only go to 6. I have to schedule a test to check for blocked tubes as soon as possible. Km pretty nervous for that. How did your appointment go? Hopefully some good news. :)

I completely understand. I have been trying for 18 months, and my best friend just told me she is pregnant. I am truly happy for her, but I can't help to feel Hurt and jealous. Every month I get my hopes up so high and every month when I get my period my heart breaks a little more.

I totally get where you are coming from. My husband and I have been trying over 1 year now. I was actually referred to a fertility clinic and got in very early (5 mos of trying, they must've just had an opening). Turns out everything is fine with both of us, and the doctor even said i have a lot of eggs (I'm 33 so was happy to hear this). His advice was to keep using ovulation sticks and try naturally. But it's still not happening! I'm not too active online, but I'm at a point where I go through so many emotions throughout the month, and am literally in tears whenever i get my period - I'm looking for any support/advice from someone in the same position as me. It's hard because literally all my girl friends have gotten pregnant no problem, or at least within 6 months, so there's only so much i can listen to.
I almost want to stop trying because i hate the waiting and the disappointment, and i couldn't even imagine how women going through iui or ivf can stay calm. I'm normally an optimistic person, but am having trouble staying positive..

I am so sorry you're going through this. My husband and I have been trying for 14 months with 10 months feeling wasted because I find out I had endometriosis where my tubes were blocked on month 10 of TTC. It's hard on both of you. I totally get where you're coming from with the Clomid. I had a bad case of the Clomid crazies. This is completely normal believe it or not.

Have you seen a fertility specialist? The crazy thing is there are so many factors that go into conceiving that can be tested.

@mrsbrownbear1 Im with you with the heartbreak every month...STILl. I hate that I'm jealous and sad around friends and ffamily expecting...but I can't help it ...especially when they start showing. My SIL is really great about not talking about things around me but I feel bad she even feels the need to "tone down" her pregnancy. Holding on to what little hope i have left

@BeaNie8884 I feel the same way with emotions all over the place....such a rollercoaster for sure. I also think sometimes about a break from trying but I don't even know how I could do that at this point. I'd still think about it anyway. That's good that you got good news from the doc! Hopefully your time is near. :) I will say I've had 2 SIL who have also really struggled and now have their bundle of joys! Okne of them lost their dad and grandfather while TTC so baby was definitely a light at the end of the tunnel....Good luck! I wish I had more positivity for you....but good luck!

@judithbeast I'm so sorry about those wasted 10 months....thats such a horrible feeling. I was tested for that last month and for me it was all clear but leading up to the test I was so sure I'd get bad news and already was feeling like I wasted 18 months...so I kind of know how you feel.

I have not seen a fertility specialist, but my obgyn has tested my progesterone levels( which were low so I take clomid), my tubes for blockage, and my husband has been tested. What other tests do they run?