Please share your words of encouragement...I need to vent here, no real questions, just sharing. I need your support, so thank you for any and all kind words and stories.

Ok, just had my HSG done today to see if my one remaining tube was useful. They did see spillage on the xray, so fluid can get through it, but it is bigger than it is supposed to be, and the spillage wasn't "normal".

Turns out, that's considered a tubal disease. Some studies show that the larger tube harvest toxins which can impact the embryo, leading to either a miscarriage or another ectopic pregnancy.

Sooooo...when I looked a little sad and suprised, she said "well, you knew it wasn't going to be good because you have endometriosis."

Grrrr...I know she's right, but somehow I was hoping that this tube wasn't impacted. The laproscopy from my ectopic surgery showed that the remaining tube looked ok, not great but ok. My OB GYN didn't even want me to get the HSG, but the fertility guy did.

I'm not sure how to process this information yet. I have a couple weeks till my follow-up appointment, and I'm starting to realize that no single appointment will tell me everything. It's like a million (not 50) shades of grey with each and every appointment.

I wish I had more answers...but maybe this is ok.