It has been more than a decade that I have been picking at my roots for follicles with a tremendous intensity. I am 18 yo and it is my biggest insecurity. I know that I should stop, but it feels so good. Stress definitely does not help. I lose so many hair and it is easily seen. It feels like an obsession. It feels like my fingers belong through my hair. The longest time that I did not touch my hair is 3 days and I find it pretty pathetic. Every attempt is a failure. It destroys my self esteem. I am starting to wear gloves at home, but I can't really wear them everywhere. I am following advices I read in other's posts, including visualization. My history of OCD only makes it worse and I do not understand how people can be few months pull free... I can't even do one week. Please do tell me if any of you has any trick you used at the start. Thank you!
Why is my mood so easily dictated by the acceptance I receive from those around me? Honestly Snapmap could be used as a torture device, except instead it sends me into a spiral of torturing myself. Why am I so easily pushed towards cutting, something I know will only bring me more pain in the longrun than the temporary relief could even fathom, by some dumb shit like a text back. I place so much...
I have had a long history of depression . I have talked about my shoplifting and alcoholism. I have a history of silly communication in work. Saracatic texts. When people dont respond I sent an anoymous e mail to somebody in work giving out about an event. She figured out it was me.Im suicidal now. I have a son. Now im thinking of ending my life