Hello trichdr Welcome to the forum. I understand how hard it is, and all of us in this forum understand like nobody else can. Trich usually starts as a result of trauma /anxiety/depression , a situation we do not know how to deal with. The pulling soon becomes a deeply ingrained habit, an addiction, that is so very hard to break. I have struggled with trich since the age of 9. Had times of no pulling through the years, sometimes for years at a time, but the pulling resurface very badly over the last 11 yrs. I wore a wig for a while during my childhood, and sadly had to wear a wig for the last 11 yrs out of 12. But happy to say I am now 15 days pull free and have no urges to pull. I think I just finally hit my bottom, after a huge all night pulling spree which resulted in no sleep at all, and undoing new hair growth. My hair is still very short, but growing in nicely, including in the bare looking areas caused from the last pulling spree. I hope to be free of my wig within a few months. They say in Alanon (for family and friends of Alcoholics) that an alcoholic has to hit his bottom and seek help on his own, for himself. I hit my bottom and sought help. I found an online program and signed up, paid money, and got myself an online counsellor. Could not afford to be spending the money on my credit card but I could not afford not to, as far as my emotional health and well being. I needed to stop pulling. The online course has helped me break the habit of pulling, and has helped me become more grounded, more self aware. I had some things happen in my life too that also contributed to me stopping the pulling - in the last few months I lost my Dad suddenly and my good friend suddenly also. Also, I recently had a birthday and thought about my age, and that life is short and I am done with not fully living my life, spending so much time pulling instead of using my time well for healthier and happier things. I suggest using a journal also to help you in your quest to become pull free, whether it be one you use at home or here at the forum. I have one at the forum, and made it viewable just to my online friends here. You can make it private if you wish. You can write down your struggles and victories, thoughts, and goals. Helps to sort how you are feeling. Add some forum members here as a friend, and message them when you feel you need some extra support. We are here to support each other. I will add you as a friend and once you accept we can correspond privately if you would like. There is a separate forum here called Beating Trich, which I am also a member of which you may like to join. Glad you came to our forum. I wish you well. xo

Hello, I know how you feel. The Lord will never give us more than we can handle. He loves us unconditionally. Having faith is super important and it pleases the Lord. That's what keeps me going. You have to focus on what you want to achieve. Pray and try to stop pulling. It may not b e easy, but it's a start! Don't give up, the Lord will help. Be patient and have faith. You can do it!!