Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling) Support Group
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I have suffered from Trich for about 8 years now. I normally target my eyelashes and eyebrows. I have OCD and diabetes as well. I find that I begin to pull when I am stressed, do not have full control of something (esp health related), or am simply sitting there over thinking. I have tried to quit many times... and well here I am today. My mother and grandmother have always gotten angry when they see me pulling. This has the adverse effect because it makes me pull even more. I also have suffered due to my other siblings and "friends" have made fun of me for pulling. They make fun of my bald eyes and remind me of the beauty I lose as I pull. I wish I could stop but more times than not I do not realize I am doing it until after the damage is done. I did a lot better this summer. I knew I was going to the beach with my boyfriend's family at the end of the summer. I did not want to have mascara and eyeliner running down my face, yet I did not want to look sick and ugly the entire time there. This helped a LOT. Unfortunately, as soon as the trip ended and I went back to college, the pulling got bad again. Tonight, as I sat watching tv pulling consistently, I realized something had to change. I want to feel beautiful. I simply do not feel beautiful without eyelashes and eyebrows. I want to be able to wake up and run to class without makeup but in my current state if I were to not put on eyeliner I would look as though I had no hair anywhere on my face. I am so embarrassed by my issue. I think eyelashes can make anyone so extremely beautiful. I have no one that understands the struggle. I want people here with me as I try to fight this struggle. I want to know I am not alone. I also want to know that my struggle is not a lost cause, as I so often think it is. I am looking for eyelash serum to help make them grow back, I found this summer that helped. If anyone has any solutions please share! I just want to win. I know I have the ability to, yet I want the time to be now. I want to feel beautiful. I want to allow myself to be beautiful. I want to stop taking from myself what God gave me. I am thankful to have found this group.
Today it begins. I will stop now. It is time to WIN!