Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling) Support Group

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Am I wrong? (Trigger warning)

I started pulling my hair (or I finally realized I was pulling my hair) when I was 17. I was in an EMT school and I read about Trich in a book. I realized, holy shit, that's what I do every single day! I tried to talk to my dad about it and he freaked out on me. Told me no one in our family was crazy and I needed to pull myself together. I never mentioned it again. The thing is, I enjoy pulling. It's comforting and it's almost like second nature to me. I do it every single day. I'm constantly touching my hair obsessively and only pluck out the hairs that interest me. There are two major areas that I pull from, on the left side towards the back of my head and the right side of my hair line (my favorite spot). I'm doing it in and off as I type. The thing is, if you looked at me you would never know I have Trich. The area I pull from in the back is covered by the way I park my hair and the hair that's missing in the front just looks like that's my hair line. The other day I moved my bed and my little sister saw all the hair behind it. I laughed and told her wow, I must be getting old, my hair is falling out! Honestly, all jokes aside, I want to stop. I've noticed that my hair has gotten thinner over the years, but I'm afraid that I will lose the comfort that it gives me if I stop. Idek if I CAN stop. Sometimes I don't even realize that im doing it. It's almost like breathing. I've talked to my psych about it and all she says it to wear hats or keep my hair in a ponytail. How can you stop something that most of the time you don't realize you're doing? And even when I do realize it was so comforting that even if I do stop myself five minutes later I continue. I really don't know what to do.


Sorry for the long post, I really just needed to vent...

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Trichster724
Trichster724

I'm the same way. When you pull, it releases Seratonin in your body which gives you a mild euphoric feeling. That's why you like the feeling and its comforting. I've struggled with pulling everyday since I was 9. Feel free to message me anytime!
Moondreamer1988
Moondreamer1988

It's definitely the most comforting thing to me. I started very young but instead of pulling I would twirl my hair so bad I'd put knots in my hair and my mother couldn't comb it out. It was until I went through a traumatic experience that I think I started pulling. It really sucks. Idk if I will ever stop. :(
ChristyB87
ChristyB87

Pulling hair has been something I've learned to accept. I've pulled my eyelashes since I was 9 - first just the top, then the bottom ones and eyebrows started in middle school. In college I started to wear false eyelashes and got really good at drawing on the brows. I wish I felt comfortable swimming... but I don't. I recently had my eyebrows microbladed which has helped minimize the amount of time I spend on makeup during the day!
Moondreamer1988
Moondreamer1988

I used to over pluck my eyebrows to the point where they were nonexistent!! I stopped tweezing because of it. If I lay down with mascara on my eyes I will pull them, so I take my makeup off before I lay down. The pulling is just so satisfying.
Kiralinekiraline
Kiralinekiraline

Thats the question we are all asking how to stop.
mal0407
mal0407

i feel u, truly. this makes me feel so scared of what the future holds, and i want to overcome this difficulty before it gets too late
Mommabearxo
Mommabearxo

I hear you, it's just something that seems so unfair yet unexplainable to most, I finally told my fiance after years , and he was the first ive told, he felt bad but I still don't think he fully understands the seriousness of the struggle
Moondreamer1988
Moondreamer1988

Yeah!! I don't think many people understand the struggle of it, especially when it's not very visible. I used to have very thick hair and I can tell how thin it's gotten. I only really pull from two specific areas but it's not really noticeable.. yet.. It feels good to tell people but at the same time I feel like I become very vulnerable when I do.
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