Micaylla,

A few thoughts, the most important being, I think, that the writer expressing such longing to experience herself has already reached out in imagination to go mindfully to places that many people irrespective of cisgender or transgender status don't pause thoughtfully to fully experience. I don't have to see you in a physical body to sense a sweet deep female attention to detail and relations of emotional content. With or without permission from anyone else in the universe you have already transitioned to being your unique self and get to discover the answers to all those questions that don 't have to match any other woman in the world, only you.

I wish you could wake up in the body that matches your soul and leave every trace of dysphoria behind. I wish that for myself. But we are having lives that are in some ways so much more deeply felt than people who unquestioningly fit the roles handed to them by biology and the politics of gender assignment. We have the huge adventure of engineering the paths we take to being ourselves whether we get to make physical or social or attitudinal or other adjustments to be our true selves.

If your reality is too tough at the moment to escape that longing, I hope you escape it in your dreams.

I hope you are working through connections to think through what aspects of transition are possible and useful for you. Your prose is profound and beautiful and is one of your resources for transitioning because it connects you intimately to others, understanding and support and nurturing we all need.

Pull everything good you can out of this experience. Positive people who will love you exactly as you are emotionally are in the world, and you deserve to find them. Courage!

Liam

I want to thank you for the kind word you left me with thank you again
Micaylla XOXO Just want to be loved for who i truely am

I think none of us are really known, even to ourselves for.all we truely.are. If we are loved we too are loved also only in part rather imperfectly. I know the huge longing to just be recognizeable by others, no explanation needed, no batting of a stranger or intimate's eye in identifying me as I identify myself. Some pieces of that come to us in physical transition and are such a relief. Some we have to make happen. I hope you connect with someone with a compatable orientation, male or female, who can take you into their arms and tell you with wonder and sincerity that they want to see you through your eyes, all you.aspire to be as a.person , and all you want when you see yourself in your mind physically. I hope you get wrapped up.in their arms and loved for your sensitivity and soul and pleasured physically as a woman with unique but perfect transitional anatomy.

You have beautiful eyes and regal bearing and huge emotional sensitivity and much to give.

Be loved.
Liam

I need a good spport group bc I need help with what I'm going through