Transgender Support Group
This community is here to support and help the large population of transgender people. If you or anyone you know identify as transgender, this is the place to share your feelings and experiences and speak with others who are going through similar things in their lives.
Sorry I'm kind of new 2 this forum and just started coming 2 terms with my gender dysphoria. I feel like I want to jump in head first but part of me is afraid of the rejection of my family and only a few close friends and family know. It feels like walking a tight rope, and most of my family is very conservative and I'm sure would reject me. I hate keeping it bottled up inside, I hate living my life as a man and wish I could begin my life as a woman today. I know its not realistic 2 think I can even start living my life as a woman even tomorrow, but I need to keep my pass slow and steady. I know I'm new here and I'm also learning many things about being transgender. I feel in so many ways like I am dying inside. There is so many things they can teach u about transgender except how 2 live with it. I don't know what experiences y'all have but at this point any information would be nice. I am seeing a therapist, I have just started so I probably have a long way 2 go. I don't want 2 become so impatient that I injure myself or wreck my chance at getting 2 transition. I have been so depressed lately and oddly the only joy a seem 2 find is my pictures of me in fem or getting to dress in fem. I feel so far from normal that I don't even know what normal is anymore. I'm just shouting out to anyone who can hear. 2 anyone listing thanks for your time and for listening 2 me ramble. I feel like I'm in a bad place right now and I don't feel like all the therapy in the world can help me right now. Any advice or any tips might be nice, thank you:-(
I think the first thing you need to do is take a deep breath, and take all the necessary steps towards your transition. You may or may not be rejected by your family but that should not be a reason not to be who you truly are. Whenever we stray from the tribe as it were, we risk rejection yet we are here to walk our path not theirs.
What should matter most is our opinions about who we are and why we are here. To live authentically is not easy but it is our calling, so many lives are lived according to what others consider normal and yet they are dead walking alive.
So what can we do as transgender folks? To learn to love and accept ourselves exactly as we are, right now and realize that to get to where we need to be is a long journey of self discovery but we are all the better for it. That we live our lives for ourselves not so others love us and the irony is that when we love ourselves, others love us, as well yet they may not be the ones we expect to love us, but those who truly loves us, they do so unconditionally.
In short, you may be in a bad place now but you do not have to live there. Also if you can find a transgender support group, it will help you also.
Hugs,
Wolf (FTM since 1987)