Andrea,

I learned that while I was having body issues or any issue that was unhealthy and negative, I was never going to attract anyone in my life. Negativity of any kind, specially resentment works against us every time.

That, as well, as I think that it would be a good idea to wait til you end transition so that you can do it successfully without distractions.

Not to mention, that envy is waste of time. They may have boyfriends but how many of them are healthy, equal relationships? How many of them are happy relationships? If they are average (read non self aware) the chances are nil that hey are anything to be upset about.

Lastly, fair/unfair are terms we use to denote a perceived injustice. Life happens the way it does, as the pace it does because that is what is supposed to happen. If there was a boyfriend to be in your life, there would be. Perhaps, you could use this time to work on yourself and school, so that if and when that boyfriend shows up, you do not not end up being a typical female.

Wolf (FTM since 1987)

The most important thing is to create a full happy life for yourself and to accept and love yourself as you are. Learn how to enjoy yourself as whole person. The rest will follow when the time is right. Many people feel as you do, you are not alone. The problem is that when you are so fixated on finding a relationship, we often make the wrong decisions. I know from experience that when you are so determined to find someone special, you leave yourself open to falling into the wrong relationships. Keep yourself open to finding someone special, but don't make it your mission in life. Concentrate on being a happy and healthy single person until the right man comes along. It's better to wait for Mr. Right rather than grab Mr. Wrong. Be happy and well.

I want to first begin by disclosing the fact that I am not in a relationship, nor have had one in a very long time. However, despite that fact, even I know all too well that Wolf is correct. Envy is not a good thing to have, its to want something that other's have, that only serves to the darkside of jealousy.

Secondly, men usually have the tendancy to go for what is easy, and it ends up hurting them in the end, as they are dating a superficial girl. If you were to go to a bar everyday, drink coffee, or a beer, but don't get wasted, and just wait patiently, maybe play a game on your cell while your waiting.

I gurranty you, eventually, a really nice guy is going to notice you. He will be more interested in other things besides your body, and he will sit down, buy you a beer, and want to get to know you. This is the kind of guy for you, I know, because the sensitive type is the kind of guy for me as well.

You don't want some motcho jock, while he might look drop dead gorgeous, he's also going to be self sentered and shallow. You want yourself to be available for the sensitive guy who is going to care about who you are.

But before you can do any of this, you must be willing to love yourself first. If you arn't willing to look at yourself in the mirror and say the words, I love you, smile, thats right, you. Then you arn't ready for a relationship. You have to accept yoruself and love yourself first before you can love another.

Try not to envy too much, ok beautiful? You are one special lady Andrea, I can sense it, any guy would be lucky to have you, your a sweetheart. :)

Thank you all for your advices. Maybe I should be more patient and grateful of what I have now. And yeah, I'm working so I will be a better woman in the future. Ashley, thats such a kind words of you ^^ you too are such a goodhearted lady.