Ok well I should start off with who I am. I am 100% certain I am transgender. I may not have a therapist dedicated to this but the ones for my childhood ptsd and depression believe I fit the criteria and it makes me happy. I just recently put the peices together from my life to understand if I am and after doing so I am so confident which really is something I rarely am that I am a girl trapped in a man's body. The only support from friends and family I have is my mother in law who I treat as my only parent and a girl I met who sorta accepts me. With the way my past is I don't trust my parents or sister with this news and realizing I need to find support outside I tried a local place but the group there is booked. So I'm trying online and hoping I can get the help here. I won't lie I'm scared and nervous not because I'm unsure about myself but trying to move into a better life for myself safely in the world today. Thankfully with the support of my mom I feel confident and willing to push forward no matter the challenges that may come but am looking for support where ever I can find it. My mom and I have found a name for me which I love which is Tazia Karl which means reborn in Italian but sadly till I do certain things I fear I can't use it fully. With me still in the military and slowly getting out medically and the fact the military is still just accepting us I am fearful of expressing myself truly which even my therapist agrees right now might not be wise for me to do. After supressing the feminine thoughts and feelings so long and realizing I shouldn't anymore because I'm not a male I find it hard to continue like this and just need to know what I should do. Any advice I would love to have and really appreciate it.