Hi all, new here. NOT new to TMJ. It started in 2007 with the typical symptoms of clicking and popping. Then in spring of '08, my cartilage dislodged. After many years of seeing many many doctors and "specialists" I finally had my surgery to replace my cartilage in 2014, but unfortunately even though my cartilage had been replaced, in did not work for pain, as my nerves are so damaged in my face now. And they did more nerve damage doing the surgery so I now have migraines 4-6 times a week on top of it all. Their answer was to throw medication at me and an insane amount!! For 2014-2016 I was taking 480 mg of OxyContin a day, then 140 mg of Oxycodone a day for break through pain. I was a walking zombie.... so I decided to get myself off of the pain killers bc I wouldn't accept that that was going to be my life. I sought out a doctor that actively helps patients reduce safely off of high doses of narcotics. Now I take 50 mg of OxyContin a day and 30 mg of oxycodone a day. Now the problem is that I have come too far OFF! I am in extreme pain all the time. In the last 3 weeks I have been able to eat something 4 times... I'm all for weight loss, but perhaps not this way. And my doctor will not listen to me that we have to stop and go back up just a bit more so I have quality of life. I have asked repeatedly to see a nerve specialist to have that side of my face paralyzed. And he forgets to write the referrals the second I walk out the door. I had the AAA surgery, I've had the reconstruction done, to no avail... I am at a point of desperation. I am getting severely depressed and have seriously considered suicide over this pain... I literally would rather give birth every day again then to go through this. I have tried chiropractors, acupuncture, reiki, massage, everything that is a typical answer for ppl to suggest I have tried. Can anyone suggest something different? Think outside the box, think of things that have helped you or someone you know. I am begging for help. I do not want my children to not have a mom, and I really really want to live, and I don't remember what it's like to live a normal life anymore... please help me