Tinnitus, Deafness and Ear Problems Support Group
This group is for those coping with Tinnitus (ringing ears or ear noise), hearing loss, and all ear issues. Join to find support and get advice from others.
Hey evreybody, saw the doc with my MRI - same as you promised - it didn't show anything abnormal... gave me more predisone, etc. it was not bad, it was not great, he couldn't promise anything, but thought over time things would either improve or i'd become more accustomed. Whatever, he did recommend no caffeine so i will now be $2.36x2x30 days richer every month since i have two cups out every day.
OK, enough about me, i had a brainwave. A big one. I won't return after letting you know because i don't want to be influenced psychologically either way until i've tried for a week or 10 days min before reporting back.
a) I have realized it bothers me less when its not interfering with my work or daytime activities. Meaning it's not the noise-silence so much as the disturbance-activity.
b) It's a feedback loop of some type, i know that because me and peolpe in experiments tend to here some sort of inner-noise when in the silence a long time by default.
c) you can't control a feedback loop without focusing on it. Hendrix got near the speakers and lost himself in the feedback. If you don't become immersed in it mentally, you have no control.
d) how do we become immersed in it? here's where i got a brainwave... i bought a CONSTRUCTION HEADSET that completely knocks 22db of sound right outta my head. Putting them on was like a dream come true... why.. i guess because of (a) i hear the ringing but i don't hear anything else - so it's not DISTURBING anything. I hope this makes sense to you all. Basically I put them on, and focus really really hard on the T.
e) Doing this, i have found i can control it. Not entirely or absolutely, but in a sense i can control how it enters or does not enter the level of 'annoyance'. It's a meditation i suppose, where the eyes are closed and the ears are shut from outside and all my consciousness is centered on the sounds being made IN my head BY my head.
f) I guess i 'become my head' (?) and can play with the T in a sense that i'm safe, alone, in a black room just me and IT.
g) Yes. I have found i can actually 'mask' it with my own mind to a degree... i find myself splitting the sound up and analyzing it all so closely i can 'take some' and 'leave some'... it becomes something i play with, hence - by nature - a 'toy' - something a little bit 'fun'.
h) This is the first day, I've worked a lot in hypnosis, self-suggestion, I've seen the power of psychedelics that enhance consciousness like a magnifying glass , the mind is maleable, the T is in the mind, we just need to slow down our mind, shut out the world, focus on the what's going on inside and work with it.
i) christ i hope this doesn't all sound too loopy. My main point and reason for excitement is that these lovely $25 headset shuts out EVERYTHING and give me an inner 'laboratory' to work with. I can tell the nuances so if Melatonin does something I WILL KNOW and by precisely how much, same magnesium, jaw movement, osteho, bla bla bla.
j) I also think within this silence my ears over time will know exactly what sound my brain is feeding it, so when i remove the headset it (should) ignore that sound.
Obviously I'm terrified all of you are going to say you've either tried it and it didn't work, or that I've smoked one too many, so I will leave the board until next Friday, when I will report back any progress.
Folks, there is one thing we all MUST remember, it's so important to believe it and it's easy to believe because it's true:
- Our mind is making the sound somehow for some reason
- Only our mind can stop or mask the sound
- Proof i'm talking science and not crap?
- Police use hypnosis to recover lost memories
- Self-suggestion are the basis for all learning
- Eastern religions are almost all about meditations to calm
- I personally used self-hypnosis to change my dream-states beyond anything i could have told you was possible before the work.
these thing usually take 30-60 days, so there is a chance i will not report back until then but i really really really would love if some of you tried this out too, for your own sakes. The construction headset is 10000x better than any earplugs or masking if you ask me, this is where i wanted to be last night: facing the t head-on with absolute ZERO environmental distractions to keep me away from following and tracking it's nuances, triggers, frequencies, etc..
Of course, with some meds/health thrown in along the way to see how they affect it within the 'void'.
last thing on the way out.. i tried melatonin pill for the first time last night and i believe it lowered the volume most of today, although i will only know tonight trying it in the silence.
speak to you later gang, keep the hope up but take control of it, look at tiger woods for example.. his game was obviously all in his HEAD since he went to TANK after his marriage, public explosion.
They train athletes to think the game, see the game, play the game in their mind, it's the mind, it's the mind, it's the mind.
OK, enough about me, i had a brainwave. A big one. I won't return after letting you know because i don't want to be influenced psychologically either way until i've tried for a week or 10 days min before reporting back.
a) I have realized it bothers me less when its not interfering with my work or daytime activities. Meaning it's not the noise-silence so much as the disturbance-activity.
b) It's a feedback loop of some type, i know that because me and peolpe in experiments tend to here some sort of inner-noise when in the silence a long time by default.
c) you can't control a feedback loop without focusing on it. Hendrix got near the speakers and lost himself in the feedback. If you don't become immersed in it mentally, you have no control.
d) how do we become immersed in it? here's where i got a brainwave... i bought a CONSTRUCTION HEADSET that completely knocks 22db of sound right outta my head. Putting them on was like a dream come true... why.. i guess because of (a) i hear the ringing but i don't hear anything else - so it's not DISTURBING anything. I hope this makes sense to you all. Basically I put them on, and focus really really hard on the T.
e) Doing this, i have found i can control it. Not entirely or absolutely, but in a sense i can control how it enters or does not enter the level of 'annoyance'. It's a meditation i suppose, where the eyes are closed and the ears are shut from outside and all my consciousness is centered on the sounds being made IN my head BY my head.
f) I guess i 'become my head' (?) and can play with the T in a sense that i'm safe, alone, in a black room just me and IT.
g) Yes. I have found i can actually 'mask' it with my own mind to a degree... i find myself splitting the sound up and analyzing it all so closely i can 'take some' and 'leave some'... it becomes something i play with, hence - by nature - a 'toy' - something a little bit 'fun'.
h) This is the first day, I've worked a lot in hypnosis, self-suggestion, I've seen the power of psychedelics that enhance consciousness like a magnifying glass , the mind is maleable, the T is in the mind, we just need to slow down our mind, shut out the world, focus on the what's going on inside and work with it.
i) christ i hope this doesn't all sound too loopy. My main point and reason for excitement is that these lovely $25 headset shuts out EVERYTHING and give me an inner 'laboratory' to work with. I can tell the nuances so if Melatonin does something I WILL KNOW and by precisely how much, same magnesium, jaw movement, osteho, bla bla bla.
j) I also think within this silence my ears over time will know exactly what sound my brain is feeding it, so when i remove the headset it (should) ignore that sound.
Obviously I'm terrified all of you are going to say you've either tried it and it didn't work, or that I've smoked one too many, so I will leave the board until next Friday, when I will report back any progress.
Folks, there is one thing we all MUST remember, it's so important to believe it and it's easy to believe because it's true:
- Our mind is making the sound somehow for some reason
- Only our mind can stop or mask the sound
- Proof i'm talking science and not crap?
- Police use hypnosis to recover lost memories
- Self-suggestion are the basis for all learning
- Eastern religions are almost all about meditations to calm
- I personally used self-hypnosis to change my dream-states beyond anything i could have told you was possible before the work.
these thing usually take 30-60 days, so there is a chance i will not report back until then but i really really really would love if some of you tried this out too, for your own sakes. The construction headset is 10000x better than any earplugs or masking if you ask me, this is where i wanted to be last night: facing the t head-on with absolute ZERO environmental distractions to keep me away from following and tracking it's nuances, triggers, frequencies, etc..
Of course, with some meds/health thrown in along the way to see how they affect it within the 'void'.
last thing on the way out.. i tried melatonin pill for the first time last night and i believe it lowered the volume most of today, although i will only know tonight trying it in the silence.
speak to you later gang, keep the hope up but take control of it, look at tiger woods for example.. his game was obviously all in his HEAD since he went to TANK after his marriage, public explosion.
They train athletes to think the game, see the game, play the game in their mind, it's the mind, it's the mind, it's the mind.
I believe I have given up on fighting with the noise, the screaming relentless noise. If its loud I just acknowledge its there and I move on. If its quiet I thank the spirit and relish in the moment.
Sue