The Serenity Room Community Group
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I'am conflicted between beliefs of God and Spirituality.
I'm not sure which one I'am. I was raised Mormon, but something terrible happened to me from several member's and I literally cannot make myself even touch a Bible let alone the Book of Mormon. I feel irritated and angry when someone tells me to pray, or God and Christ will save you.
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When I look at those that are religious and I'am not, I see not difference in there problems and mine. Between their prayer's and my lack there of, we both seem to still have just as much bad as good.. Is it the peace that these people feel from prayer that makes it worth living a life of Christianity.
I feel the need to continually challenge God. Maybe I blame him for my past. I begged and prayed for help, but it didn't come.
I hope there is a day that I can find peace with this because it continues to bother me. I feel I need proof. It is probably a very selfish thing to want or expect.
There was a time that I felt close to God. It lasted about a year. Up until I had my first severe manic episode. My world has been upside down for a long time.
Anyway I hope some people read this. I could really use some advice.
I'm not sure which one I'am. I was raised Mormon, but something terrible happened to me from several member's and I literally cannot make myself even touch a Bible let alone the Book of Mormon. I feel irritated and angry when someone tells me to pray, or God and Christ will save you.
.
When I look at those that are religious and I'am not, I see not difference in there problems and mine. Between their prayer's and my lack there of, we both seem to still have just as much bad as good.. Is it the peace that these people feel from prayer that makes it worth living a life of Christianity.
I feel the need to continually challenge God. Maybe I blame him for my past. I begged and prayed for help, but it didn't come.
I hope there is a day that I can find peace with this because it continues to bother me. I feel I need proof. It is probably a very selfish thing to want or expect.
There was a time that I felt close to God. It lasted about a year. Up until I had my first severe manic episode. My world has been upside down for a long time.
Anyway I hope some people read this. I could really use some advice.
i was dying, in the hospital, had made a terrible mistake in my meds!
nurses were scamering all around me, taking bp, vitals, i lay just watching all this go on..
i could hear what they were saying, and i knew i may not have long!
i thought about my family, my kids, my husband..
there was nothing i could do, then.
as i lay there, a catholic nun walked into my room, leaned over me, and suddenly, i seen the cross!!!!
it had jesus on it..now i had not been to church in years!!!
not religious or anything like that..
but...........when i seen that cross..something inside me cried out, THY WILL BE DONE!
i didnt know how to pray..or ask god for anything at that time..
as i think back, it seemed to have happened suddenly, but i know it didnt, but soon after, i raised up,asked for water and a cigerette, smoked at that time, looked all around me, took a deep breath, and told myself, and felt it too, i was alright!!!!
i was alive and well!! i felt like nothing had happened to me! i was fine..everything went back to normal!.....
you can call it anything you want..
to me..he heard my cry!
top me, he was always there..
bren
Like Mikes16 said "quit looking at it will come naturally".. Hugs
Well, first off, I do believe in God and Satan. I have also made the comment that if I could, I would sue the Catholic Church for teaching me to feel guilt at every evil thing I did. Bullsh..!!!
You can believe in God and not the religion. Very, very easy to do. Your church did not make or bring the bible into existence. Those prophets, Jesus and God did. That being said, remember you are going to the creator for your needs and to put your burdens upon God and not that church.
We all have our issues, I believe with religion, in some manner. Pull yourself up and come to forgive the people who did you wrong. They can not make you not believe. They are just people with their own OPINIONS. And you know what they say about opinions...LOL>LOL
I have been exactly where you are and have risen from their crap and lies. As an adult you must chose that which your conscience and heart tell you. Shutting God out, I don't feel was the answer for me. My faith was too strong.
Remember for whom we thank for our life, the sky, animals and LOVE. That did not come from spiritism.
Love and Good Choices to you. We are here whenever you need us.
Barb-Detroit