Do you ever get stuck in irritation mode? Everything is making me angry. Big things...little things seem big...it's way too stressful to hold it all in.

Yesterday (ok, it's really still today) was an incredibly high pain day and that usually triggers anger and hopelessness in me. Everything was magnified.

I'm pissed that my tenant has been blocking me in my own driveway with his car. His horribly putrid couch is still stinking up my house. The woman who talked me into renting to him and promised to handle any issues that came up, is MIA!

Then there are the people who claim they can't post on DS, get someone else to give an update...hence lots of attention...but they have no problem posting on facebook! That's none of my concern, yet it pisses me off.

I could barely stand to work with the pain I was enduring and my first client thought that by telling me story after story about people who had REAL health problems so that I'd feel healthy by comparison...wtf? I wasn't complaining, but the way I was moving must have been obvious that I was having an awful struggle.

And if praying to some invisible, male entity is the answer to everything, why haven't all the people who do that been healed? When something bad happens to a deserving person and somebody calls it karma, what terrible thing have I done that makes me deserving of this life?

None of it makes sense to me. I'm feeling so hopeless and angry that I'm wringing my hands until they crack and bleed from all the hair chemicals they've been in.

Less than two hours is not enough sleep...more Trazodone.

Night all...hoping these feelings will have lifted in a few hours.
xoxo