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Do you ever get stuck in irritation mode? Everything is making me angry. Big things...little things seem big...it's way too stressful to hold it all in.
Yesterday (ok, it's really still today) was an incredibly high pain day and that usually triggers anger and hopelessness in me. Everything was magnified.
I'm pissed that my tenant has been blocking me in my own driveway with his car. His horribly putrid couch is still stinking up my house. The woman who talked me into renting to him and promised to handle any issues that came up, is MIA!
Then there are the people who claim they can't post on DS, get someone else to give an update...hence lots of attention...but they have no problem posting on facebook! That's none of my concern, yet it pisses me off.
I could barely stand to work with the pain I was enduring and my first client thought that by telling me story after story about people who had REAL health problems so that I'd feel healthy by comparison...wtf? I wasn't complaining, but the way I was moving must have been obvious that I was having an awful struggle.
And if praying to some invisible, male entity is the answer to everything, why haven't all the people who do that been healed? When something bad happens to a deserving person and somebody calls it karma, what terrible thing have I done that makes me deserving of this life?
None of it makes sense to me. I'm feeling so hopeless and angry that I'm wringing my hands until they crack and bleed from all the hair chemicals they've been in.
Less than two hours is not enough sleep...more Trazodone.
Night all...hoping these feelings will have lifted in a few hours.
xoxo
Yesterday (ok, it's really still today) was an incredibly high pain day and that usually triggers anger and hopelessness in me. Everything was magnified.
I'm pissed that my tenant has been blocking me in my own driveway with his car. His horribly putrid couch is still stinking up my house. The woman who talked me into renting to him and promised to handle any issues that came up, is MIA!
Then there are the people who claim they can't post on DS, get someone else to give an update...hence lots of attention...but they have no problem posting on facebook! That's none of my concern, yet it pisses me off.
I could barely stand to work with the pain I was enduring and my first client thought that by telling me story after story about people who had REAL health problems so that I'd feel healthy by comparison...wtf? I wasn't complaining, but the way I was moving must have been obvious that I was having an awful struggle.
And if praying to some invisible, male entity is the answer to everything, why haven't all the people who do that been healed? When something bad happens to a deserving person and somebody calls it karma, what terrible thing have I done that makes me deserving of this life?
None of it makes sense to me. I'm feeling so hopeless and angry that I'm wringing my hands until they crack and bleed from all the hair chemicals they've been in.
Less than two hours is not enough sleep...more Trazodone.
Night all...hoping these feelings will have lifted in a few hours.
xoxo
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89FNo energy, just going to do whatever. Sandra, It's hard to move at a certain time in life. You've been in your home forever, at least you'll be able to travel to the beach and enjoy. Oh, we did hear Boris Johnson's tenure ended due to a series of ethics scandals, accusations of dishonesty and a final collapse of government support that forced his recognation. What he didn't do like the...
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88FWhat I do like is early morning clouds and then they disappear and the sun comes out. That was it's cooler in the morning. I'm sitting here looking out the window at the hummingbird with the river and dike as a back drop. It's hard to invision ever leaving but I'm also a realist with aging, especially when the luncheon we had with thirty former classmates on Monday. Sandra, we get news of...
I am so sorry you are in such a bad place. Yes I can understand. I hope you get some much needed rest. It has always amazed me that people actually feel that telling us that someone is worse off helps us feel better. I think there is a wire loose in their brains.
You are a very hard worker. Take a break. Find some relaxing tea and forget the all the negatives around you.
I am having a very hard time sleeping, now I am getting afraid of going to sleep because I seem to wake up feeling worse. Oh well. Life is not perfect. And no, none of us deserve this life of pain and exhaustion.
Hang in there. Hoping tomorrow is a brighter day for you. Hugs-RJ
it's so frustrating when others pull that "some other person has it worse" thing and all it's variations.
i know that we differ on faith in God. in terms of karma, i've felt that way, too. wondering if hitler's karma got mixed up with mine.
hope you catch a break today. thoughts and prayers are with you.
hugs.
Its like everyone and everything irritates the hell out of me!
The only thing i think you can do in a mood like that is to immerse yourself in something, its what i do anyway. I go on a mad cleaning frenzy or hide myself away and watch my favourite film.
I keep telling God that if he were to let me win the lottery, i'd appreciate it, but i don't think he believes me!
A helicopter crashed into a crane in London the other day, the man who was supposed to be in the crane slept in that morning! Who's looking after him??!!
Hang in there.
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It would be nice to get a small bit of relief form the physical and emotional distress.
Thanks for your observations on attention seeking and on karma. I hear ya!
Heather
There's no law written that you have to happy and positive everyday, so what's wrong allowing yourself and giving yourself permission to be "down right miserable"!
Just go with it.. just be...
I love you darlin, Healing hugs, Marci