The Den Community Group
Pull up a chair and put your feet up. Lie down if necessary! :)
Well, I hit the "join" button. :) Not really needing or wanting to do to much talking. But that "put your feet up" well sounded pretty good to me... First off HI, again... lol Don't really know what I am typing or why just wanted to not "run" off daily strength again.... Kinda "done" with the "estrangement" pain.... at least not "in pain" anymore.... If that makes sense.... Just kinda tired of the whole "stuff" stage in the game... lol Soooo, I have been reading this site for some time now.... Gotta tell ya... those changing avatars! When times were bad, and I just didn't want to "think" estrangement. and I still just needed some "connection" to these sites... Well, I would simply come to see the "avator" of the day.. :) You have no idea how much that gave me smiles...
And the story you where going on with the "sprained ankle" (sorry don't know all yours names) That had me laughing and laughing... when I thought I couldn't...
I hope I have not "ruffled" so many feathers on these sites by now that I will cause any of you any uncomfortableness... I really really don't want that... and really don't want to "debate" anything anymore... Just would like to read and put my feet up..
I hope that is OK :)
I will be good! honest engine! :)
And the story you where going on with the "sprained ankle" (sorry don't know all yours names) That had me laughing and laughing... when I thought I couldn't...
I hope I have not "ruffled" so many feathers on these sites by now that I will cause any of you any uncomfortableness... I really really don't want that... and really don't want to "debate" anything anymore... Just would like to read and put my feet up..
I hope that is OK :)
I will be good! honest engine! :)
Just you saying it doesnt hurt anymore got my attention! How long has it been for you?
I am sorry, I just got the biggest smile right now... "how long has it been for you" (chuckle) I must be in a silly mood or something :) All I could think was like an AA meeting or something! :) HI, my name is gonnabe and I have been "punk" free for ....... (chuckle)
No seriously, it has been nine total years for my oldest... haven't seen him in five... (son - 29) and my ED happened August 25, 2013... She was married to her "co-shunner) lol Oct of this year....... Reading about the "wedding" (sorry again don't have names down) broke my heart... and made me see how "lucky" I was NOT to be there!!!
This can always hurt if you get sentimental... or let yourself think about it... But the greiving, the raw open heart wound stuff... Over for me... still can cry if I want to and sometimes need to... But Better, yep I am better.. That I can say with honesty... And I just am going forward. :)
Thank you for the welcome paws. :)
I keep saying there is life after estrangement and you are proof of it!
We are one big happy family around here.....I love the variety of subjects and casual talk...so many great peeps here. I've had the pleasure of meeting a few of them in person.
As soon as it thaws out, I'm betting there will be another conclave where Baily's and marshmallows flow like lava and lighthearted conversation happen with ease :P
I will provide you with the every changing avatars.....check in daily for a new smile.
I've lived in the wasteland of estrangement for 20+ years.......so over feeling like crap.....I've moved onto greener pastures.....over the septic field :P
Feel free to jump in...and if there are any other lurkers......come on in so you won't be alone any more.
Those little unbrellas! I was so fasinated by those when I was a kid! Think I'll stick with chocolate milk though... Can that be served with the little cute unbrella too! Last time i got a little low and thought I would just "treat" myself to a bottle... I got out one in the fridge that was bought to cook with...... I think it cost 1.99..... Oh my.... I drank it all.... and I can tell you that I can't even think about drinking with out gagging still!!! Just smelling the stuff makes me sick even now...... Lesson learned... stay away from really really cheap wine! :)
Snow? shoveling snow? Did I read somewhere on here about how much poppa polar bear just loves the snow! :)
Thank you in advance... momma and pappa and all of you here... just for having this haven to rest in.. :)
Glad you clicked " join".
.Me too, it's been over 20 years since the first one first did a great big FU mom! I've had too many days of crying my guts out. Who knew that a human being had so many gallons and gallons of tears in them. So over taking the blame and feeling like a loser.
NOBODY GE STEAL MY PEACE AND SELF RESPECT NO MORE!
Yep, I don't deny it I sure know how to open my mouth too too too much... sometimes I know I have said what I stand by... sometimes .... well though this whole mangled mess of "finding" my way through.... I have "jumped" and flailed my arms and screamed and got offended... and just ........ well....... sometimes I am real real good at sticking my foot in it.... or trusting too much... or just have too strong of beleifs....... lol...
That is why I just want to put up my feet and stop having to "work" through... debate "issues" or agonize over "are (we) handling this estrangement stuff the "right" way....... Too damn funny if you think about it! We all end up at the end just sitting here having to accept it anyhow. :)
Thank you for the welcome.... and I hope I can just "be" here.... My wonderful history of names include... GonnaBeOK, GonnaBeOKyep, IamOKyep, SteelSpineneeded, Pushinupmators, TammyBe64, TammyBe1964...... and ya know how emberassing that is to type! :) But I just don't want anyone to think I am trying to hide who I am, or cause anyone any greif.... or drama...... TRUELY I just want to rest and enjoy the NOW.
Please anyone who wants me to leave here can tell me. Honestly, I will understand... OK
Kb I was typing and didn't even know you had a reply on here while I was typing. I must type really slow. :)
I am so so punk free, well I am so so punk free... ummm...... I am so punk free that I...... well Ok you got me stumped. :)
Been there done that - punk free :)
Let your hair down.....and just hang with us.
Guess we have all tip toed around our EO for so long.....it's hard to just relax.
It is perfectly fine to stick an umbrella in a glass of chocolate milk or other non alcoholic beverage of choice.
I don't drink myself.....but I'm sure I might feel better if I did :P
.I think your name should be I AM OK NOW!!!!! Hooray. You sound so OK. And thank you for bringing all your OKness and laughter here. .I m so with you just put my feet up and no more trying and trying and trying to make things work no more walking on eggshells and no more trying to please the pleaseless or find mutual understanding and all that crap that we all know so well. So It took me until 2013 to finally say NO more, no more no more. And then learn what in the heck does that look like. What does it feel like? So freeing.
Think I'll change my name to PUNKFREE.
You sound like you're ready and willing to more forward with your life too. Just think! Now you can "GonnaBe" anything you want!! I really hope you choose "GonnaBeHappy!" Believe me when I say that the world is a great place when the stress of dealing with those punks is gone! Blood pressure is much better too!
Oh yeah... It would be me that did the half gainer off my back porch last June and messed up my ankle. Although it hurt like a bit*h.... I did find it completely entertaining. I really try to practice that "Lemon/Lemonade" theory! Had enough of the dark side before estrangement... I'm just... not...gonna... do...it....anymore!