Teen Anxiety Support Group
The Teen Anxiety community is focused on teens who are suffering from or concerned about anxiety. Teenagers commonly experience many different forms of stress as they continually face new situations. The purpose of the community is to help facilitate teens communication, and in the process share ideas, and develop the knowledge, tools and techniques that may effectively...
I recently made myself give up cutting due to a scary incident with said problem. Now I find that I really miss it. Not only that, but my anxiety is up, I can't make any friends, I'm rapidly losing the friends I do have, I have lost interest in almost everything, including dance (which is my life). I can't make myself get out of bed anymore. I have a total breakdown almost every night. In said breakdown I hallucinate, hyperventilate, basically have a panic attack; the only way for it to stop is for me to medicate myself and forcibly sleep. I really only ever want to communicate with my friend who lives in the UK, but that relationship is obviously pretty hard to maintain from New York. I have nothing IRL anymore. I don't want to leave my room, let alone my house. I'm eating less, until I binge(and throw it up when I panic because overfull+hyperventilation=vomit). My parents are not supportive of me being transgender. Although going from a daughter to a gay son can't be necessarily easy, they will not tolerate any talk of physically, socially, or legally transitioning. As of late,my own views of myself have gotten worse as well. I keep finding that everything is worse, nothing is ever good enough, in my mind I'm lazy,ungrateful, and undeserving. My medication,quite clearly, isn't working well enough for me to say that I'm functioning as I should be. I try to exercise etc, but nothing seems to help. I don't know what to do anymore.
As far as the self-harming bit goes, I understand how difficult giving it up can be. I know it's challenging, but there's a lot of coping mechanisms that can really help. I know they sound so typical, and you've probably heard them before, but holding ice, snapping elastic bands, and clapping hard can sometimes help with the sensation.
I know long distance friendships can be hard to maintain, but if they're the only person you feel like talking to, it's obviously worth the effort. Try to text/snapchat/facetime daily, even if you don't have much to talk about. If you can, even try to send them letters - the sentiment is nice.
As for the breakdowns/lack of interest in everything, maybe you should talk to your parents. I know you said they're not exactly supportive, but if your medication isn't working, maybe they can try to help.
~ Stay Strong.