if you haven't spoken to someone professional yet, then maybe that could help. you shouldn't stop coming here, because there are others struggling the way you and and they can help.if there are any support groups you can join in your neighborhood or even somewhere you can bus to then this is something you dont have to face alone when your not here. these are people you can comfort you when you venture outside and you can build off of eachother.

Are you a Christian? This has helped many past the fears of this world into a place of peace and strength. I must admit, I don't like being religious, but the only reason I stand is because of my core beliefs, without which I would be a helpless wreck, but that's me. Jesus is absolutely my crutch at the end of me, when I've searched down to discern why I still stand, what strength keeps me a float? I see His undergirding arms holding me up and so I return, not in my own strength, for I when I was weak, He was strong, and in my weakness His strength was made perfect.

Sorry to get religious, but I do not know of any other way to comfort you, but what I truly believe in my heart is true and sure and I have supreme confidence in.

A place I go when I feel this way is the Old Testament book of Psalms.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+1&version=NKJV

Then there is the book of John in the New Testament, how powerful is this from John chapter 14 verse 27:

"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you: not as the world gives, give I to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. " ~Jesus

I know what you're going through. I'm still dealing with it myself, like when talking to people you just feel like this level of intensity is rising up inside you and at any minute you're gonna burst and go insane? I dont know if thats how you are but that happens to me even around people I've known my whole life, but if you can relate to that, then just remember... IT WILL PASS!!! The BEST way to get over it, is to expose yourself to people as much as possible. Slowly for sure though. You can go at your own pace and start really small, like just going into a gas station with someone and not even talking. Then next time maybe greet the person at the register. The longer you avoid people, the harder it will be to get back out there. I promise you'll be ok! Good luck!!

I'm a girl and 15 years old. I have severe anxiety. Still, I know that for everyone it is different, and what you are going through sounds incredibly painful, lonely, and scary. I will be honest - I have no idea what it is like to feel that intensely around others, and I admire you so much for making it this long without giving up! I think you are amazing.

My counselor is non-judgemental, practical, and very helpful if you would like me to give you her contact information.

Otherwise, I know I don't have much to offer, but if you would like to be friends with me, then I will never leave you or try to judge you. If you want, I could be your online friend. You won't have to ever see me in person, I'll just be here. Always. I want you to know that I am here if you need me. Because... You must be suffering so much.. and you must be lonely. I'm lonely too. I hope you don't feel pressured to be friends - I would never want to cause you more anxiety. But if you wanted... we could support each other and get through all the pain by knowing that the other one is there.

And I agree with chrishardwood: the only thing that got me through was Jesus.. but I will never push my belief onto you if you don't feel the same.

Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I would like to your friend... I know it's pretty scary and strange... making friends with a total stranger who could harm you, but I will never ask to see you in person (and if you wanted to see me in person I would make sure both of us had an adult at first!!!!!!!!!). I just want to be here for you because pain and suffering is terrible and you deserve some support! Even if it's not from me, I hope you get some. I'll be praying you do!!

p.s. even if I met you in person, I wouldn't mind your crying at all. I would just hug you and be with you until you wanted me to leave. But I know that won't stop your fear. I will be constantly hoping and praying for you to get better. Take care.