Hey honey u can message me

Same here. Feel free to send a message.

Thanks

I'm around any time, too. I'm happy to talk.

Please message me if you would like to talk. Please do not harm yourself at all in any way, please! I am only four months outs now and I am profoundly sad, confused, shaken to my very core, totally in shock, and disbelief, and I am lonely as well. I miss the person with whom I fell in love and gave my heart and complete trust to her. I literally prayed that I could die, not by suicide, but just never wake up from sleep. I have 4 awesome children and two beautiful granddaughters. They all need me, and I need them. This has given me the will to stop praying to die and want to live. What we want is the pain to stop. The pain is immense and even unbearable. I don't know why it is so deep and intense, but it is. Please don't do anything to harm yourself. You are loved by so many that you'd be surprised. Many of us on this site have gone through or are currently going through this nightmare, waiting to wake up from it to find our lives back again. This won't happen. These creatures from hell have caused our reality to become this nightmare and we need to heal from it and get through it to come out the "other end" stronger and much better selves. I am so far away from that today, but I went through it once before after a 26 year marriage. This recent one was 3 years. She texted me 6 times on the day she left me, stating how she loved me and couldn't wait to see me tonight "honey buns" and sent heart and hugs'n'kisses emojis. When I got home, she pulled out two pre-packed suitcases, and said she was leaving me. She told me something I will never forget, but so badly want to. She said she never loved me, I made her sick to her stomach and she has never been happier than she was at that moment to be leaving a two and a half year marriage of hell. She said it was all my fault and listed off several things that were typical of a fledgling marriage and totally workable. She pulled her leg away from me as I lay heaped on the floor grasping her pantleg. Not a single showing of empathy or feelings toward me. Then she went silent for two weeks. I finally got a text stating she wanted to move out in two weeks. I had packed all of her things into the garage as I could not bear looking at them or having her smell in my closet and home. She soon packed all of her things into a Uhaul and left. I received a scathing text the next morning stating she was "infuriated" because I wasn't there to help her pack and move. She has still never given me a forwarding address. Two days after she moved she posted on Facebook a picture if her with her arm around two guys and she had moved out of state. After some digging in phone records and background checks, she had apparently been texting that man in the photo for nearly our entire marriage, everyday, over 150 texts per day, some picture texts at 3 am, 5 am, and late at night. She had been having an affair with this man and possibly the other man in the photo as well for over the course of our marriage. I was lied to, betrayed, deceived, and cheated on. She literally promised me she would never ever leave me and never lies, and would never cheat. All tells. Now today, I miss the person whom I thought she was but never existed. It is eerily uncanny and strange to still have a deep love for and a bond with a liar and a cheater. I don't get it. I can't understand this feeling or these thoughts. The pain is overwhelmingly intense. I live for my family and for the fact that this woman will not crush me. I may be bruised, but not crushed and she will not get that from me. I will heal. I will prevail. I will become the man I am and even an improved version. She will never heal and will continue living as the empty shell that she is. You are a great person. Remember that. Be well and be strong. Peace

I just read this. How are you? Messages me if you want to talk! I’ve been in your shoes. I really have. Much love to you.