I am very sorry. I am sure you loved your dad. It does get easier as time passes but, we all grieve differently and the length of our grieving is different as well.
I understand how you feel. Both my folks are gone too.

My father is gone my mother is alive but hasn't talked to me more than two hours in 30 yrs so that's what I ment when I said she's gone I'm sorry for any misunderstanding ...

I am so sorry for your loss and completely understand how your feel. I was very close to my father growing up. My parents were a 2nd marriage for both so they were older and my father was 11 years older than my mother. As the only child of my parents and my dad's only child it was really important to me to give them a grandchild. I had problems getting pregnant so years went by. My dad got sick and I panicked. I wanted to adopt but my husband didn't. We separated and I ran into an old friend from high school. 2 months later I was surprised to find out I was pregnant. I will be forever greatful it happened because my dad passed 8 months later. I was lucky enough to be living with them so my dad got to spend everyday with his grandson. When he died I was at the hospital with my son because he had pneumonia. I was sitting in the chair and jumped up telling my son's father we had to go something was wrong. About 5 minutes later I got the call from my mom. I was devestated both for me and my son. He loved his grandson so much he always said he wished he would live long enough to take him fishing. My son will never know what a great man his grandfather really was. My loss was so much greater, but I was the one who had to take care of my mom, as promised to my dad. The hurt and lonliness was very hard to deal with. It was only made worse by the loss to my son. My father died in 2001 and now my son is 19. I have struggled a lot with this over the years, but trust me it does get better. Over time you will come to realize you can think about the good times and smile instead of crying because you miss him. Keeping him alive for your children will help keep him alive for you. Unfortunately you have to suffer the pain to grieve the loss. I often say the Serenity Prayer and ask God for comfort and it has helped. Take it one day at a time. It will get better. I will be thinking of you and wishing you strength and comfort.

Thank you..betrayedx2...

Thank you oldbiker ...

It was my dad's first missed birthday this Sunday past I wonted to have a drink to get drunk I wasn't sure how I'd get through it I asked my other half to pick me up some drink we normally have non alcoholic drink so that's what he picked up so their went that idea, I miss him so much he worked hard all his life and played hard too the life and soul of the party I regret not spending more time with him so much and now it's to late...I can't ever see him again I feel like part of me has died with him he's all I had will I ever get over him dieing ? You just expect your parents to be around for ever and then they are just gone ...