My grandma was admitted to the hospital sunday around 1 am. My family, boyfriend and I went to see her sunday night. She had a tube in her brain and in her throat. She wasn't breathing good on her own so they put a tube in her throat. I am really scared. She had a lot of swelling in the brain and was bleeding too. They said they don't know if she'll make it through, but if she does she might be paralyzed on her left side. She is a sweetheart and I don't know what I'm going to do without her. I already have depression. I'm going to cry a lot which is normal, but i'm not sure how to make it through. I saw her unconsious with the tubes in her and balled my eyes out. I held her hand for about 10 mins and then said I had to get out of there. I just couldn't take it. She didn't look like my grandma. She is beautiful though and I am going to miss her like crazy. My grandma is really worried and won't eat. My dad is going to go crazy because its his mom. She has 4 sons. Now the holidays are going to be really hard for my whole family because she might die. Even if she survives its not going to be the same. Its going to take a while for her to recover. I was really excited to spend it with my new boyfriend of 2 months because I know my grandma with love him. My ex was a dickhead and spend christmas with us and stuff before. So I was really excited for him to actually get to sit down and talk with my grandma. He met her once, but they didn't really talk that much. So now I'm really upset. Everyone is going to be depressed around here and idk what to do. Looking for support/advice.