I am five years out from a subarachnoid hemorrhage at age 44 that has left me with panic attacks, depression, migraines, visual or optical illusions (rapid flashing of lights and colors in my eyes 24/7) and emotional swinging between anger and extreme sadness. I have problems with overstimulation to the point where its very difficult to be out in public longer than about 2 hours. I find myself isolating myself in my home. I have been on numerous medications to try to help, the last one was Topomax which made me suicidal. If anyone out there has any words of wisdom I would love to hear from you. I am struggling to stay positive but its very hard. Prior to this, I was a healthy full time nurse, marathon runner, newly married and pretty happy with my life. I cant work anymore as a nurse, I am trying to fiugure out what I can do for work but the overstimulation issue makes it difficult. I know everyones journey after their stroke is different and I know Im lucky to be alive and I am grateful to be here but this is very hard. I am also entering menopause now so Im sure that isnt making things any easier. Does any of this ever get better eventually? I offered to divorce my husband last night because I feel so horrible that I cant be the person he married 6 months prior my stroke and its not fair to him to have to deal with this. He refused but I know this has been a game changer for both of us and I feel like we are just getting through our lives together. He sees a counsellor to help him and I just feel like I am dragging him down. Ok. thank you for reading this.
It was pointed out to me by a close co-worker that he felt like I reacted to my adult daughter's behavior because of events that took place when she was younger that I never had a chance to deal with. I do have a therapy appointment this coming week to start the process but really on a daily basis have no one to talk to because this has burned everyone out. My daughter at 16 attempted suicide...