When we found out we were pregnant we were elated. This was our first pregnancy. When we found out it was twins we were even more excited and couldn’t believe it. The type of twins we had, we found out, share a placenta which made it a very high risk pregnancy. Later in the pregnancy I was going for ultrasounds once a week to monitor them. Even after all that care, I still did not think anything would go wrong.
I lost my twin babies at 24.5 weeks. We found out that one of the babies was taking from the other. They both ended up losing their heartbeats and I gave birth to them on May 17, 2018. I still get flashbacks of feeling the babies against my thighs as each baby came out and the silence that filled the room as they came out. It was devastating to go through labour and not get to meet the precious babies that had lived with me for 25 weeks.
In the beginning the emotional pain I felt was unbearable, but slowly I am starting to heal. I have finally been beginning to feel normal again. Today, for some reason has been tough, and I know it’s going to be that way for awhile.
The reason I joined the group is because this is the first day I have been ready to google anything and to read about other stories like my own. I have been scouring the internet for hopeful stories and while I have read some amazing ones, they all seem to be posted years ago and the threads seem inactive.
I desperately want to be pregnant again. I just got my first period since everything happened and was actually delighted to get it.
I was wondering about other people who have become pregnant after loss? How long did it take and were you anxious the whole pregnancy that something would go wrong again?
Sorry for the long message.
Also, if anyone ever needs to talk about their loss I would love to lend an ear.
I have been whavin issues with mania while being pregnant. I understand that its normal, however I'm wondering if anyone has some helpful advise on dealing with it. I am 17 weeks pregnant and not taking meds as I am very high risk. My Drs just tell me to take meds which just isn't an option.