I have not been on here in awhile. When I first lost my son Max I was on here everyday. I felt that I just could not do this. I could not live with this pain. I felt that life was over , I felt alone and was not sure how I was ever goin to live on. I just want to tell you all something. No the pain does not ever go away but it does ease up with time. Right now you cant see how that is possible and neither could I, but as time past, months past I learned how to smile again. Yes I still have "bad days" but they dont come here everyday anymore. I can go a day without crying. It doesnt mean I have forgotten Max because that will never happen. There will always be a hole in my heart that only he could fill. In time you will find that you dont come here everyday. No matter what there will always be wonderful people here for you if you do come but I do promise that in time your pain will ease and you begin your new lives as mothers of Angels. You will smile again, you will laugh again and you will see hope in the future again. I am not saying that will happen tomorrow but one day. Always know you are special and loved and the pain you are going thru as been felt by many before you and sadly many after you. I hope one day that one of you will be the one here typing this to help those who are new here. There are many groups on facebook I can hook you up with that do many diff things to help you with your grieving if you need more than just this group. Here and there are People that always understand cause they too have been thru this and people who will never turn you away and do something that not many out in the real world do to often when you want to talk about your Angel...They listen. I am sorry you are all here just as I am but nothing we do can change what happened. All we can do is help ourselves and those around us make it thru this black hole and one day see the light at the end. :)