I found this group searching the internet for answers or stories of anything related to what me and my bf are going through.
The start of 2018 was nothing like I ever thought it would be. On January 2nd 2018, I had my glucose testing and regular checkup with my doctor. So excited as usual to here our baby girls heartbeat and do some of the last testing for the 3rd trimester.
I don’t think anyone prepares you for this type of pain. The doctor used the fetal Doppler as usual to listen to her heart but she couldn’t find it, I didn’t even worry cause she was active a lot and also my placenta was in the front. When the doctor said we are going to do a ultrasound never did I think something was wrong, everything had been perfect. The moment the doctor pulled up the ultrasound and I didn’t hear anything my heart dropped. She invited another doctor in to help her find the blood flow on the smaller ultrasound machine. I knew something was wrong, I was then brought to a larger ultrasound room and there was our babygirl on the screen not moving and no heartbeat.
I cannot even tell you, hearing the words there no heartbeat I will never forget. January 3rd not even 24 hours later, I gave birth to her by c section, she was breech and this was the safest way possible.
I will never be the same person and I really want that feeling back of carrying this beautiful baby girl, it is so hard to see other woman pregnant and children too. It’s an emptiness I feel will never go away.
I am hoping my story, can bring more woman to this group for us all to support each other. The reminders and pain are so fresh but I know talking about it will only help the healing process.
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