My Son was stillborn a week ago & my Husband & I really don't know where to turn. We left the hospital with a stillbirth book in our hands & no help whatsoever. I am from the U.K but have lived in Canada for the past 4 years with my Husband.
I was 23 weeks pregnant when last Wednesday I had a slight show of blood in my usual discharge. This has been quite normal for me as I had a large fibroid on the outside of my uterus. I went to bed & couldn't get comfortable due to very mild cramping in my lower abdomen. I woke my husband at 6 Thursday morning & told him we needed to go to emergency as there was a bit more blood & my back was so painful I couldn't sit down. We was seen straight away. The baby was as active as ever on the screen & his heartbeat was perfect. The doctor said that he would have to do a internal to check for preterm labor but at 23 weeks it was very unlikely. He said my cervix was closed & I was good to go home. We'd not quite made it home when my waters broke. We turned straight back round calling the hospital on the way who told us to go straight up to maternity. Baby's heartbeat was still fine but I had such bad rectal pressure like I needed to go to the bathroom. Before I even got there my gynochologist showed up, took one look & said he was about to be born.
Logan John was born sleeping 15 minutes later weighing 1lb 1 ounce.
We spent 2 days with our son in the funeral home. I held him, told him how much we loved him & wrapped him in his own blanket before saying goodbye one last time. He was so perfect & looked just like his Daddy with perfect lips & the cutest little nose.
Logan was cremated on Monday and we brought him home yesterday to his beautiful nursery that his daddy only finished putting together last week.
At 39 he was my first baby & a complete surprise. We called him our little miracle. Now we are completely lost. We have received no support off anyone. Not one single call from any medical professional. Nothing.
At my age I'm not sure if we would ever get that lucky again & even if we did with no answers as to why this happened could it happen again?
Thank you for taking the time to read this
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