Stillbirth Support Group

This community is dedicated to those who have been impacted by a stillbirth. A stillbirth occurs when a fetus which has died in the uterus, during labor, or during delivery exits a woman's body. For help and support, share your experiences and learn how others coped. Don't forget that you are not alone.

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ExpectantKay
ExpectantKay

I lost my son on the 3rd of November 2017. He was such a loved child even before his actual arrival and birth! My partner and I are slowly and carefully navigating through our loss and pain. We are clueless but we are holding each others hands. 



He was born at 37 weeks 5 days and was born after my body spontaneously went into labor. I went to the Dr on Monday to confirm his gender and get another opinion and he stubbornly did not want to show his gender. I remember laughing with the Dr and joking at how my son loves attention. I miss him so much and I hope he knows how much I will always love him. 


I don't know how I will get over this loss and sometimes it sure does feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm praying and hoping that I recover and heal fully so that by the time I'm ready for another baby I can carry and deliver a wonderful rainbow after our storm. 

Aboveliquidice
Aboveliquidice
I'm sorry for your lost and share your pain. My wife and I just lost our baby girl at 37 weeks. It may be of some comfort to know pain only happens (in this case) because of the love lost. It hurts because your heart has grown to love something unconditionally and it's taken away. In time, our pain will fade, hopefully leaving us the sweet memories your family shared. I'm hopeful this pain will get better. I'm hopeful I'll figure out the path forward for my family. Today, however, don't focus on those things. Be present in the moment and know you do not suffer alone. So many people share your grief. Take care.
boy-mommy
boy-mommy
I want to give my most sincere condolences. I just lost my baby boy on 11.05.17 I was 18+4 weeks
msnjudah
msnjudah
I too send condolences to you for your loss. I lost my Judah on October 4, 2017 at 25wks. He was my companion and I was his for that whole time he growing inside me. I was able to have some peace when I held him at his birth, and saw that he was "perfect" and asleep. Please take comfort in knowing that your baby is now and forever will be an ANGEL keeping watch over you; being a protector and companion as you were to him while in your womb; and you'll someday meet again. Make the most of the memories you have of him, and share them with all who will have them too. Continue to be STRONG
LogansMum
LogansMum
Our little boy was stillborn a week ago & we are totally lost. I was 23 weeks & I'd just been checked at emergency & told my cervix was closed & everything was fine but my waters broke on the way home. Our baby was as active as ever on the screen with a strong heartbeat but I delivered him 15 minutes later & nothing.
We really are completely on our own. Not one single call from anyone, not even the so called medical professionals who were supposed to call
We are just lost
all4tito
all4tito
Hello Expectantkay.....I feel your pain. We lost our baby boy at 41 weeks on 29/06/17. The Lord has been our help and support. I think about him everyday. I know you will feel lost at this time but please know God loves you and wants to carry you. Isaiah 53:4-6 talks about how Jesus bore our pains and sorrow. I know you might ask if God loves me why would He allow something like this to happen...I cannot answer all your questions but I have come to understand that God cares and He is willing and able to carry us. I tell myself everyday to look forward to the future. I cannot replace my son...he will forever be in my heart....however I am very hopeful and full of faith that I will have rainbow babies....you are blessed. Take courage my friend...
Andia108
Andia108
I'm so sorry for your loss. We just lost our son on November 18th. 39 weeks and 1 day, so so close. On Thursday at his appointment everything was well. Then Saturday I didn't feel him kick all morning. We went in to the hospital and he was gone. We found out after delivery by a csection that he had a true knot in his umbilical cord. This pain is unimaginable and every little moment i question if I could have prevented this somehow. Waking up each morning is an unimaginable struggle.

We had a miscarriage last December and truely believed our son was our rainbow baby. It makes no sense at all. How can we even go in to the nursery?
AngelEmmaRose
AngelEmmaRose
To all the parents who have lost their reason for breathing: I am so sorry. It is not fair and nothing will ever make it ok. But little by little you will find reasons to smile again and will return to normalcy. A new normal though. Your outlook will be forever changed. All my love is with you. I lost my angel in August 2014 and today I smile. I cry also, but I do smile.
brielle1985
brielle1985
I feel your pain.. i lost my son Eli on November 4th at 35.6 weeks.. his umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck twice.. my baby shower was scheduled for the next day. Some days I have to block him from my mind. Not because I dont love him but because i cannot handle the pain of losing him. Some nights I cant watch my husband sleep because he looks just like him. I am praying for you and every other person on this group because that pain is unreal. I am hopeful that we will be able to have another child but right now i am paralyzed with fear of something like this happening again. Tuesday i finally go back to work which im ready for but not ready for. My coworkers are just a reminder that when i last saw them i was an overjoyed pregnant lady and now...