Hi
Once again, like your flashbacks, this sense of dread that your loved ones are in danger is also a symptom of PTSD.
I was getting those thoughts to.

You need to tell yourself that those thoughts are not reality. It is normal for you to fear for the safety of your family when one of your family has died, but this does not mean the rest of your family ARE actually going to.
Counselling will help you to develop an inner voice that calms you, that tells you these things aren't real, that re-assures you.
Because I've previously had counselling for PTSD, I recognised those thoughts for what they were when I started having them after my son died.
I just have to tell myself "It's ok, they are ok". Af first it was really hard, and I had to tell myself over and over! You need to interrupt the thought pattern, don't let it run unchecked, you know?
Counselling is probably needed. It's terrible to live with those symptoms- flashbacks, nightmares, panic attacks and fearing that your bf or mum are going to die. Counselling will shorten the length of time you experience this stuff for. Not getting help will prolong it.

I have those feelings as well..i worry and panic and break down everytime my hubby goes somewhere...its horrible...its only been 7 weeks since i lost Bella so i cant tell you how long these feelings last...but i can tell you that your not alone. I feel like im cursed or something and something bad is going to happen to everyone around me...ive suffered a lot of loss in my life and Im so scared i will loose my hubby next....Im sorry im not being much help...i just wanted to let you know that your feelings are normal because i feel the same...if you need to talk...please message me anytime!!

It definitely sounds to me like PTSD as well. I was diagnosed with it after my stint in the army, and then it was confirmed after the baby was born. Think about getting in to see a counselor... PTSD can sometimes gets worse unless it's treated.
Praying for you, dear.
Meghan

I had those fears so much for about 2 months after losing my angel. Everytime my DH went out to work it felt like I'd never see him again. It was terrible, but it doesn't happen anymore, I did get a foreboding feeling when we went on holiday at new year, like the plane would crash, or we would be lost and moneyless in a strange place... I did feel quite panicked. But I just held my breath and faced it all... and it was ok. Probably I'll feel the same way when it comes to the next baby, going back to the same hospital with the same babybag, expecting an induction,just the same as last time... terrifying... :(

Yip, sounds so familiar. Lost our angel about a year and a half ago. I remember not wanting to let my hubby go out the door without me. It lasted a few months for me, but now I'm better. Sometimes I will still get a "panic attack" but these are few and far between.
Good luck, soon you'll be better.
Lv, D

I have had similar fears.
I've found voicing them makes me feel better. I didn't at first because I thought my husband would think I was crazy, but he was calm and reassuring.

I was constantly worried about my husband for weeks after we lost Colton. I still get worried at times, when it snows or when I'm driving by myself (which I think is weird). My dad called in the middle of the day a couple of weeks ago which got me all upset till I was able to listen to his voicemail and he just wanted some help with a name.
Its getting better for me. Its been 7 weeks.

I had the same fears, when this first happened all I wanted to do was hold on to my husband. I wanted my whole family in one room at all times. I also feared that something was going to happen to me, I even went to the ER the night I left the hospital. I have been hating these snowstorms b/c what if I have to get to the hospital? We have tall trees in our yard and I thought they were going to kill us during a blizzard. I felt if my son could die anything could happen, constant fear of the worse. It's been 8 wks and feel somewhat better. Sometimes when my husband is late I still feel like he's in an accident and something happened. My dr put me on anxiety meds which have probably helped.

Since Holly's stillbirth, I have had the same anxiety. When I would drop my daughter off at school I would worry all day ... if her bus was 2 minutes late I would pace back and forth by my front door nervously waiting for her. During the snowstorms I would break down and cry until my husband came home from work because I was so scared he would get in an accident. It's been 2 months and it's getting a little better for me now.

PTSD... I love the fact that we all seem to know all the same terms and symptoms. Really, I wish none of us had too. I know what your going through as well. I was put on an anti-anxiety for awhile after Destin and it helped alot. Xanax and alazapran (not sure if I spelled it right) were the ones I tried and they worked rather well. I could take them as I needed them for anxiety and panic attacks. If you think that your attacks are more than you can handle then I would talk to your doctor about it. Counsiling can help too. I did see a decrease in them after about 3 months when the horomones started to get back to normal. I hope this helps.