I am so sorry for your loss. I know right now you feel like the world is ending. I just lost my daughter 6 weeks ago tomorrow, I was 22 weeks pregnant when we found out her little heart stopped beating. Autopsy reports showed no problems, so we dont have any answers. This was my first child as well. I know exactly how you are feeling and I am so sorry you have to go thru this. I remember that first week like it was yesterday. This is something that changes your life completely, but you are going to come out stronger, I know you dont believe it now and honestly at the point I am at right now, I dont always believe it either, but I know it is true. Do what you need to do and dont hold anything back, cry, scream, lay in bed all day, dont talk to anyone, whatever you feel like doing right now, do. I found this site a few days after I delivered Kaylee and honestly all I would do the second I got out of bed was log on her and write, comment, read thru friends journals. This site has helped me a lot and I am so thankful to have found it. We are all one big family and we completely understand eachothers emotions.

As for your brother, I am glad that his baby was born healthy, as I am sure you are too. But you have every right to feel angry about it, you have every right to feel jealous and sad. They are your family and they should understand this. When you feel ready, go ahead and see the baby, but until then dont push yourself. Just send them a text or something congratulating them and explain that although you are very happy for them, right now you cannot see the baby. They will understand.

Please, dont force yourself to do anything that you do not want to do right now. You need this time for yourself. I am sending hugs and prayers your way and again, I am so very sorry for your loss.

Hi there hun...im soo sorry for your loss...I lost my little girl on Dec. 26th...one month ago yesterday...it is sooo hard...but please know you are not alone...we are all here for you.
The way your feeling is absolutely normal...i have several friends who just had their babies and i feel the same way....im happy for them i really am...but i am sad and angry at the same time...i want what they have..i want my baby here and healthy so i can care for her...but im sure your brother knows and understands that you are hurting right now and im sure he will understand if it takes a while before your ready to talk or see them...i have a hard time leaving the house let alone seeing children..most days i dont want to see anyone...just take one day at a time...and your brother knows your happy for him...even if its hard for you to say right now....I also wanted to tell you that your son is Adorable...a beautiful little angel

They didnt even tell me. I read it on facebook. I think they were afraid of how I would react. I already explained to him that it may be awhile before I want to see her and he said he understood but I just didnt imagine I would hurt this bad when I found out she was born. I love him and he knows it and am very happy that she is healthy . I would never wish what I am goin thru on anyone but its like being stabbed in the heart with a knife when I think about it.

What makes it even worse is a long time family freinds wife just had a baby and her birth anouncment was right under my sons obit in the paper..I feel like this day is crumbling around me.

I am so sorry for your loss. I truly hate it when we see another mother lose a child. It is unfair and should never happen. I wish it never had to happen. I am dealing with a similar situation where my half sister is now pregnant with her 4th child and I am very angry with her because she didn't tell me. She has been extremely selfish and stupid about the whole thing where I am concerned. Don't be surprised if you get treated differently. It is horrible and hard to understand why it is that people who haven;t lost a child treat those who have the way they do. I wish I could take away the pain for you but I can not. It will be a year for me in April and everyday still hurts. Not as much somedays but there are days when I just wish I could bury my head in the covers and not face the day. Love you and I am praying for you