I don't think you're crazy at all. Who wouldn't crave to have there baby that they SHOULD have?

You're not crazy. For the longest time after my loss I would experience little "kicks" in my stomach. It was such a weird feeling, because I wasn't pregnant again. They were like "phantom" kicks and I know that others have experienced this too. I felt like I was going crazy at the time. You're not crazy at all:)

This made me cry. I know exactly how that feels. No you are not crazy, I went through that also and still have moments were I think ,where would she be right now, what would she be doing?

I feel the same thing with Ava and Phoenix. I want them back so bad. I'll sometimes literally feel their presences there strong. I cry and cry and it's so strong I have to hold their stuffed animals.

I felt it when I slept. This weight, small, but there curled against me cuddling as i fell asleep. I also felt phantom kicking up until her due date, they were hardest on my due date, then stopped completly. i never thought i would miss the phantom kicking, but i still do to this day.

I missed those phantom kicks when they went away too!

I've felt phantom kicks as well. I sometimes crave
Holding them at night. I have to get two tiny stuffed animals that were about their size that I was given in memory. I cry all night some nights. This is imcredibly hard for me because I know I'll miss them forever. The twins were my hardest loss. Whenever someone hints I can't take care of two kids at once it's especially hard for me to hear. I'm sure I'd be fine if they were here and okay and healthy. But they aren't and that hurts worse. It's very sad this whole process. Why can't it be easy for me like everyone else. Why can't I just have "normal" worries and troubles. I feel overwhelmed with all this grief I just can't handle.