I am so sorry you had to go through that! I recently got a heartwrenching call from a doctor questioning why I haven't rescheduled my glucose tolerance test which is something I could not do anyway having severe hypoglycemic episodes, problems with allergies to the dyes, and hyperemesis that made me not even hold down water to the point where I had an Iv shunt about ready to get a picc line before I tragically and suddenly lost my boy and my girl at 22 weeks. Losing Ava and Phoenix has affected me so badly. I am crushed. This came after five losses. I am surrounded by pregnant women in my family, at work, and everywhere I go. It's hurting so bad. I had to get my boyfriend on the phone when they called me starting in preaching at me that I needed to get it (when I couldn't have anyway, which was hard enough hearing doctors tell you the whole lecture on possible stillbirth when you are unable to take that), and I was wailing and handed the phone to my boyfriend. He really let them have it! I hate this so much.
All I want is a family. It's going to be a long hard emotional road for me, and doctors and nurses sometimes aren't the most sympathetic people in the world. Sometimes it's the exact opposite of sympathy they have. It is so hard to not be eligible for things I was eligible for previously because I was pregnant. We also had plans I was hurt by losing. We had plans to put them in the baby fair for cutest twin babies. We had plans to show people that hope can exist after multiple losses, and I feel like that glimmer of hope we had is lost now that they are gone. I will miss their firsts. I once got offered a rose on Mother's Day and turned down because when asked if I had any children I said no one time. I had just had a miscarriage earlier that year. I'm crushed.
I too entered contests and drawings. I hope I don't get any of those. That would be so heartbreaking for me. I hope you can find a little peace today after that happened. I'm so sorry to see this happened to you.