I know your pain! I called my Lochlan my sweet potato. He was going to be so much to our family and to the world. Honey, we will never know why. We just have to trust that our boys are safe and that they know we love 'em. And it's not fair!!! But unfortunately, it's also not up to us. Hang in there. You will hold him one day. In the meantime... I really don't know what to say...I'm in the same boat. Hold on to what is good in your life. It will never be OK, but we will learn to accept it, I hear. Lots of love your way.

Hi Martha,

I can't tell you how much you remind me of myself at the moment everything you say or feel at the moment I feel the exact same way. I prayed to god the other night to ask him why, why us what did we do that was so wrong to deserve this all we wanted was our beautiful boy to join us in this world and we cudnt even have that, life can be so cruel sometimes.

Thank you ladies.......
I often ask myself how does life get better? All i think about is my son.... and all the things that were planned for him..... I was putting away my baby's clothes last time andvit was like if i was buring him again. His nursery room still the same..... with his name on the door...... I wish i could turn back the hands of time.... it hurts me that he fidnt get to enjoy this world....... No mother deserves to ser their babies die before them...... i lived life.... why take his life away...... he was so pure.....

I could write this very thing about my Eleanna. Her 3rd birthday was on Wednesday. I miss her everyday. I wonder all the time, who would she look like? Would she be a girly girl or a Tom boy... Would she love princesses...all of it...but,....

The truth is the why is probably fairly simple, but harsh and not what you want to hear. He was not meant for this earth. His short life he was meant for you to love him carry him, hope for him, prepare for him, but also to say goodbye to him. Ugh that hurts... It's not fair. It's not right. It's not what you or anyone else wanted, but it is. Moving forward hold tight to those precious few memories and know you will continue love him forever with every bit of your heart (or at least what's left after a big piece has been taken). Live a life that makes him proud of his Momma.

Helping other families with loss is one way that I find a "good" reason. The other is to look back his short life and smile, because you felt him kick & grow, and loved him.

((hugs))

This is all a process any you are entitles to all your feelings.

Thank you, MrsMarsh,

It is very sad that we have to go through this in our lives. I don't think no mother deserves to lose their children specially a baby :0(

Happy 3rd birthday to your angel Eleanna, I know she's watching over you... and giving you daily strength...

Hugs