Hi to all of you, my baby girl was born sleeping in may 4 at week 39. One of my friends just had her baby boy last thursday. At first I wanted to see him so bad because I was so worried about him, I just wanted that baby to be born and to know that he was going to be fine. He was supposed to have a heart condition that the Dr found like two weeks before his due date. He is fine thanks God but I went to visit last saturday I think mostly because he is a boy I don't think I could do that if she had a girl. My friend asked me if I wanted to hold him. I said yes but I kind of had a panic attack. I didn't say anything to the mom but I felt like he was going to die in my arms. Now I feel like I am not going to be able to keep a baby alive. I just told my friend that the baby was probably hungry so I gave him back to her but I was feeling horrible. I didn't want that baby in my arms at all. have any of you have gone through something like this??? Any fears of having a baby die in your arms??? Thanks for all of the support.
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