Stillbirth Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have been impacted by a stillbirth. A stillbirth occurs when a fetus which has died in the uterus, during labor, or during delivery exits a woman's body. For help and support, share your experiences and learn how others coped. Don't forget that you are not alone.
I'm sorry that we all have to be here, but I'm glad I found a place with people who can really understand what I'm feeling. I just want to share my story so I don't keep it bottled inside. I had my angel baby Laylah on October 8th at 38 weeks. I'm having a hard time dealing with it, because it came out of no where. We went in for our regular weekly check up on October 6th at 11:00 that morning, my Dr asked if I had been feeling movement and I had told her that I hadn't felt her move much this morning, but was really active the night before. She told me that that was ok because as she gets bigger she starts to have less room to make any big moves. My Dr then found her little heartbeat on the Doppler, and I was a little relieved but still had an uneasy feeling. I went home after my appointment and decided to take it easy for the day I went for a nap at around 3:00 and woke up at 6:00. I still felt uneasy and told my husband that I thought something was wrong, so we went to the hospital. The nurse couldn't find her heartbeat while doing the NST, she told me she was going to call my Dr and get an ultrasound. I knew at that moment she was gone, but the nurse couldn't say anything. My dr got there about 20 mins later and confirmed through ultrasound that she had passed away. I went in the next morning to be induced l gave birth to my beautiful baby girl at 2:00am Sunday morning. As of right now we have no answers why it happened, all of my blood work came back negative for anything, and now we are waiting for the autopsy results (I hate that I even have to say that). This is so hard, because she was our first after 6 years of trying for her, we thought a pregnancy was not something we would ever get to experience, then we do, and it all ends so abruptly so close to the end.
I agree with Jennieluv that is comforting in these dark days to have the support and I thank everyone for sharing.
Jennaroy, thanks for letting us know what it is like two years on. I too lost my baby boy in early October (at 31 weeks) and I do wonder if this pain carries like this forever. Everyone says time will heal but I don’t think u can ever heal but u just learn how to cope. Glad to hear you have found some solace two years later. And thanks for coming back to support us others going through the rough patch.
Jennieluv, I felt baby quite unusually active the night before he stopped kicking too. It’s your maternal instinct that tells u something is wrong and you got it looked into so know that there might not have been anything you could have done to save baby Laylah, so even though you will find yourself doing it but don’t blame yourself. I have to keep on telling myself that too because otherwise it can bore a corrosive hole in you and that’s not helpful to anyone right now when you should be trying to physically and then emotionally recover. Take care and know that you spent 8.5 beautiful months with your gorgeous girl and those memories will last a lifetime xxxx